A Revert in Masr

Christmas Time and New Year

2011-12-25T18:00:00.002+02:00

As salamu alaikum :)

I really get lazy 2 write here, but thats simply cause NOTHING happens in my life.
Sad but True..

I feel so bored n fed up with my life these days.
There r so many things i wanna do and i simply cant cause i live at the end of the world.

Inline skating - ppl would look at me like am crazy here and well the streets where iam arent good 4 that..

going to the gym - theres just 1 gym near, its not really a good one. id also need someone 2 drive me there n take the baby 4 that time

There are also no shops around here, so shopping isnt an option, not 2 mention that i couldnt afford to go shopping all the time i feel bad :D

So 4 the new year am hoping to change location.
There r more things i wish and plan 4 but i guess since they arent sure its better 2 be quiet about them just now.

4 now iam just waiting that i can go 2 germany to stay there 4 some time and relax.
I really really need some time to think things over and decide what i want.

Now iam just mother, housewife, wife..
iam not satisfied with that..Not that i dont love my son, hes the light of my life.
I cant imagine 2 be without him ever again and he makes me smile when i wanna cry :)
But well just being mother and loosing myself isnt working. Im sure rayyan wants me 2 be happy 2.
So i gotta change to be happy

Bad thing about it is i feel so damn guilt 4 thinking like this :(
I mean my life isnt bad, i have food, a place 2 stay, runnign water, electricity,...
Am i being greedy 2 want more?

Anyway i wish all of u a happy new year :)
Inshallah its gonna be a great one

My other Blog

2011-08-28T17:20:00.002+02:00

I have had that other Blog for quiete a long time and didnt give it so much of attention. Especially since i had Rayyan. Now that i have more time on hands i will try to post there more frequent.
Its all about recipes :)

http://recipes-from-everywhere.blogspot.com/

Tagged A to Z

2011-08-28T16:45:00.003+02:00

Ive been tagged by izdiher some time ago and just discovered it now :)
Thx for the Tagg, i really enjoyed ur answers..and these r my answers:

A
– Available: No
– Age: 24 since 1 month
– Animals: Love Cats and Orcas

B
– Beer: No alcohol for me
– Best friends: Names stay secret :)
– Body Part on opposite sex: Eyes (blue or green) and smell
– Best feeling in the world: When my son comes to give me a hug and lays his hea on my shoulder (never lasts for long he right away has to go for new adventures)
– Best weather: Not too hot n not too cold
– Been in Love: Sure
– Been on stage: Once in highschool
– Believe in Magic: ya
– Believe in Santa: I used to and i was sared of him :S
– Brand: I like stella mc cartney ( i never owned any of her designs though)

C

– Candy: I love only chocolate n ice cream
– Color: Brown, Grey, Purple, White
– Chocolate/Vanilla: Chocolate
- Chinese/Indian/Italian: I love indian Food
- Cake or pie: Cake
– Cheese: Cheesecake :D

D
– Day or Night: Night..Im more awake at night than at daytime
– Dancing in the rain: I did it several time in germany..at night

E
– Eyes: Im mostly too shy to look ppl in the eye
– Ever failed a class: once
– Enemies: I dont think i really have any
– Exercise: Should do more

F
– First thoughts waking up: Wheres the Kid ?
– Food: I love food.. guess thats where the extra pounds r from

G
– Greatest Fear: War
– Get along with your parents: Yes

H
– Hair Color:I need to change it n dont know wether to go light blonde or dark brown...or red???
– Happy: So so
– Holiday: Eh? Holiday is when my husband takes the kid so i can sleeep

I
– Ice Cream: Ben n jerrys is the best

J
– Jewelry:Love them
– Job: Housewife = cleaning, cooking, babysitting, ironing, washing,...

K
– Kids: 1 son n inshallah soon more :)
– Kickboxing or karate: Never trie any of them
– Keep a journal: Only my blog

L
– Love: Greatest love is to be loved by Allah, ur kids n family

– Laughed so hard you cried: i guess so

M
- Milk flavor: Anything, i love milk with any flavour
– Movies: Havent been to cinema for a loooong time..but pirates of the carribbean is a great one
– Motion sickness: hmmmm...

N
– Number: 3 n 9

O
– One wish: Ya rab let my mum become a muslim and grant her and my son Jannah!!

P
– Perfect Pizza: vegetarian pan pizza with lots of cheese (from pizza hut or pizza king)
– Pepsi/Coke: Pepsi (egypts national drink :D) but i avoid it anyway
– Perfume/Cologne: Gucci n pure poisen

Q
– Quail: ??

R
– Reason to cry: I cry easily..
– Reality T.V: Not so interesting
– Radio Station: Nile Fm and Najoom Fm

S
– Song: last breath - ahmed bukhatir
– Shoe size: 38-39

– Salad Dressing: Only vinegar n olive oil
– Skinny dip: No
– Strawberries/Blueberries: Love them
– Sport: Running, skating, swimming
- Sex: is private

T
– Tattoos: Haram
– Thunderstorms: Love them as long as its not too loud

U
– Unpredictable: Life is unpredictable for sure

V
– Vacation spot(s): i went to pakistan, sweden, denmark, austria, egypt :D, spain. N id love to go turkey/istanbul and Oman

W
– Weakness: My weakness is to forgive ppl way too often
– Who makes you laugh the most:P: My son :P u should see him walk like a penguin and putting my underwear on his head
– Worst Weather: Tooo cold..so i have to weat a lot of clothes

X
– X-Rays: had it done as a kid

Y
-Year it is now: 2011
-Yellow: Only on walls

Z
Zoo animal: Zebra

Suhoor

2011-08-28T11:53:00.003+02:00

Egyptians kinda eat always the same for suhoor ( the meal before fasting in ramadan)
Fouhl ( cooked brown beans)/ baladi bread/ taameya ( falafel) and yogurt
Well my husband eats the same on normal days for breakfast too but i get bored of fouhl easily.
I prefer oats with milk and fruit ( especially mango) or omlette.
Normally i HAVE to have coffee for breakfast, i skip that in ramadan and drink it at iftar instead.

yesterday my father in law was here for a visit n brought Guava. so yummy
I love to eat them just like that without anything and so does my little one. I cant eat a whole Guava as i always have to share it with the baby, he keeps begging til i give up :)

Fresh Guava :)

Nescafe with lots of milk n some sugar..theres nothing better :D

Our Suhoor Fouhl n falafel/ baladi bread n Yogurt

My Suhoor 2day Spanish Omlette

ramadan kareem/ late but better than never sa7?

2011-08-26T00:46:00.006+02:00

Its a lil late to say Ramadan Kareem i guess?
The last 10 days of it are about too end and i finally have some time on hand to write here :)
Still in cairo though i wish id be in germany but well life doesnt always go as we wish. So im waiting that allah will make it possible for us 3 to go germany to visit my family. I miss them so much it hurts, but it wont be too long inshallah ya rab!!!

The last weeks i tryd my best to use ramadan as much as possible. Last year i couldnt fast so this year i was able to fast alhamdulillah. It went pretty well for the first 20 days. the last few days i felt really thirsty the whole day but i take it as a test from allah to make me experience the feeling of the poor even more in the last 10 days. May allah help those ppl who have no water and no food!

Now that my baby boy doesnt demand to be carryd all the time anymore i decided to start to learn cooking. Well i can cook and am not bad in it but i wanna learn to ccok more Recipes. It goes pretty well and my husband likes the stuff i cook ( well at least he says so :) I wish i had my family here to cook for them too. I just love to cook for ppl who r close to me.

i love giving gifts too but well thats something i shouldnt do here too much :(
Egyptian get jealous so easily and thats a real problem to me! If i give someone a present ( simply bcz i found something he/she needs or bcz she helped me be4) than another one will get jealous..ya rab im just trying to make them happy but i cant afford to buy presents for everyone at the same time. If u r jealous be sure some day ull get something from me too so whats ur problem?
Anyway i guess ill only give gifts to non egyptians or kids from now on cause they appreciate it!

Now its 4 or 5 days until eid and i still dont know what ill do. My mother in law isnt in egypt so we probably wont go to her house. But staying here wont be interesting too. Maybe we should go to the azhar park, i really love that place and havent been there for ages. I would love to spend eid with my mum, that would surely give her a good impression about islam. Well maybe next year, inshallah.
What r u doing on eid? leave a comment if u do anything special on eid, i need some ideas :)

This mosque has a great architecture. Ive never seen anything like that be4. Its in 6th october/cairo

Time to leave

2011-06-08T13:45:00.002+02:00

Its getting really hot here in cairo now :S
I dont like it..not at all!
Last year it started to get hot in middle of may. At the time i had Rayyan (14 june 2010) it was around 42 C.
Well google says it about 36C now here, but it feels like 40C
I keep windows and doors closed from 11am until maghrib but still its hot in the flat :(
Rayyan doesnt like the heat too and refuses to eat ( great for a kid that is already thin :S)

So i guess its time to leave egypt and go germany for summer vacation.
Unfortunatly we cant go right now cuase some obligations keep my husband here.
I might just go without him and he can joing us after some time.
But we wont leave until july anyway so inshallah than we can go all 2gether.

I will miss Cairo so much...ok who am i kidding, i wont miss it :)
I will be happy to be in my hometown seeing all my family members and introducing rayyan to them. I might even meet some of my childhood friends who i havent seen for at least 10 years.
Inshallah i will meet my father too who i have seen the last time at my 18th birthday :S
I hope we can make things right and have a normal father- daughter relationship again. It would be great for rayyan to have his granddad in his life i guess.

So now im gonna go back to my water bottle cause thats the only thing keeping me alive in this heat :)

Husum i miss u..

Husum is my hometon, not that u think anything wrong now
Iam 2 lazy to upload pics now so this is the album with pics of husum (from my fb acount)

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.43743800329.73061.685135329&l=a711b65bbc

the time of birthdays

2011-06-04T14:26:00.012+02:00

The next 5 weeks a lot of ppl i love will have their birthdays.
Starting with my precious son on june 14th.
After that there r 7 ppl having birthdays until the 7th july
My mum, my unlce, rayyans cousin ( shes getting 2 years) , rayyans uncles ( twins), my husband and my dad.
The most impprtant ppl are not near me on their birthdays and i just wish i could be there to surprise them :)
Alhamdulillah i found a great service where i can send a postcard with a picture (one i upload or 1 they offer) and write some words. They send it on a chosen date and take only about 2 - 3 Euro for it. I used this for my uncle n dad (www.pokamax.de )
And i will buy something for my mum and let them send it to my uncle so he can give it 2 her on her birthday inshallah.

I have no idea what to arrange for my husbands bithday.
It should be something he really likes and doesnt expect.
One of the things ill do is definetly to make a poster with pictures of rayyan and us as a family.
But still i need something else and im thinking hard still i cant catch a good idea.
Id be thankfull for any idea :)
Egypt isnt very good when it comes to order things online.
In germany i can get ANYTHING online. I can even order a puzzle made with a picture of rayyan online. Its so much easier to arrange surpirses like that secretly.
Last year i send my mum flowers to her brithday but i figured thats its a waste since shes not such a fan of flowers and to send them coasts just as much as buying a proper present and get it send to her :)

2011-05-30T14:42:00.006+02:00

Its 15 days left til my baby will turn 1 year
Hes not really a baby anymore :S
I realised this on saturday when i saw the daughter of my husbands cousin. Shes looked so tiny compared to rayyan.Shes born 22.5 and her name is khadija.
Its hard to belive rayyan has been so small, only 1 year ago.
He was 3.5 kg heavy and about 50cm long. Now hes about 10 kg and over 80cm long.

Despite the fact that some annying, ignorant ppl give annoying comments about him, im very proud of him.
He can crawl very fast, stand up without holding on to anything, walk while holding on to the couch, say some words, eat some foods alone and many other small things.
So hes a pretty normal 1 year old boy :)
I get comments that he is too thin a lot..well he is thin, but after all he weights 10 kg so its not way to less.Sometimes he eats well, some days he doenst wanna eat much at all..nothing unnormal
The ppl who tell me hes too thin always got "nice" advices for me. Some stuff like "u should give him sweets, babys need sugar too!"
" Its no problem to give him pepsi and chips sometime"
Well am sorry, my child doesnt get chips, pepsi and all the other bad stuff..
He doesnt get tomatoes, strawberrys before he turns 1 year ( they r proven to be linked to allergies)
He didnt getcow milk and yogurt too before he turned 11 months. now he get maybe once a week a jogurt and ill start to give him cow milk from time 2 time.
Healthy and very active, so obviously theres nothing missing in his diet!

I will celebrate his birthday which will be more for us than for him, since he wont understand it anyway :)
But i got no clue what i could buy for him.
I need a toy that helps him 2 learn something. We have already enough other toys ( teddy bears, rings, baby mobile with german language, picture book) but i want something interesting. So any advice on this is appreciated :)

I guess rayyan notice hes getting big and so he decided to change his sleep schedule..
He goes to bed between 8.30 and 9.30 and than he wakes up at... 7.30 am :S
Well sometimes he let me sleep til 8 or 8.30 but 2day he woke up at 6.30.
I gotta say am more of a nightperson, i can stay awake all night and sleep til noon.
Waking up at 8 or 8.30 is fine with me but 6.30 is cruel.
I hope he gonna stick with waking at 8.30am..inshallah

So i guess i talked enough about my son :)
I hope its not too boring but am just so proud of him.
I placed a bowl of watermelon in front of him and now hes just eating half of it while throwing the other half on the carpet..i guess i better go and clean it up be4 it gets 2 messy..

hand crafts try number 1

2011-01-17T17:34:00.003+02:00

The last time i have been doing hand crafts was in school, so thats a little time ago.
But actually i love doing it so i decided to start doing it again.
Specially i wanna stich some clothes for my cuty son :)
But my first project was a gift for someone. She just got a baby and i decided to give her something personal. I just hope she will like it cause i know its far from being perfect :S
Its my first try on this kind of hand crafts so its not that good, but still not bad i hope?
wait for more cause i just started and i got a new hobby :D

Ps: the little hand on the left corner is from rayyan trying to get into the pic :)
he loves it when anyone takes pics of him.

update

2010-09-07T00:57:00.003+02:00

I dont really have anything 2 say
I feel like my brain is ewmpty and i just cant write anything :S
Rayyan keeps me busy these days as he crys a lot and always want us 2 carry him around, thats really exhausting. Especially when he starts to cry in the mornin when we are still tired and i can hardly open my eyes.
But the good thing is that he finally gained ore weight and he actually is nearly normal weight now, alhamdulillah :)

I wish u all a nice rest of ramadan an a great Eid :)

Fun facts - things u can know but dont need to

2010-08-29T22:14:00.003+02:00

The Nails of a human grow in his/her life 28 meter.

Anthropologists havent found a folk where children dont play hide n seek.

I france its forbidden to call a pig napoleon.

The lighter has been invented before the matches.

There isnt excisting a sea or a river in whole saudi arabia.

The Spanish Inquisition once condemned the entire Netherlands to death for heresy

One in 10 male guinea pigs is considered to be gay.

The shortest war ever took only 38 minutes. He led in 1896 between Britain and Zanzibar. The war began at 9 clock in the morning.

The female octopus is up to two feet tall and ten kilograms, the males, however is only 3 inches and it weighs a quarter gram. The male doesnt survive the mating.

The suicide rate among psychiatrists is twice as high as for their patients.

Chocolate contains three times as much iron as spinach

due to unnecessary hard copies in Germany every year 500 000 trees to be felled. One in three prints out his e-mails to read them

Only two cities in the world live more than Turks in Berlin: in Istanbul and Ankara.

When cows eat too many carrots, their milk turns pink

A four year-old asks about 400 questions a day.

Man are spending 140 days of their life shaving themselves.

While sleeping we turn around more than 10 times per hour.

A human loses skin cells in the course of his life with a total weight of 20 kilograms

Im Jahr 2006 sind 2,1 Millionen Menschen nur deshalb umgezogen, weil die Nachbarn zu laut waren.

Three-color cats are almost always female.

In New York are more Italians than in Rome, more Irishmen than in Dublin and more blacks than any other city in the world.

Viagra helps to keep cut flowers longer fresh.

1471 in Basel a cock got accused. Allegedly, he had - the natural laws spite -laid an egg. As a "devil in disguise," he was burned at the stake

In ancient Egypt pregnabcys were prevented by crocodile dung

Every human is crying in his life as a bathtub full.

Fear?

2010-08-22T03:38:00.006+02:00

I recently got scared liek hell from a spider so i thought im gonna share with u what iam scared of
Anyone who read this and like 2 share what she/he is scared of, let me when u post it on ur blog ( im curious :D)

Ok am scared of:

1. Spiders :S
I just saw a spider sitting on the bed sheet that i hang outside 2 dry.
It was white with black spots n had a fly inits mouth :S
Im scared of spiders anyway, even not as much as i used 2, but this one just freaked me out.
Im kinda scared it might be poisonous :(

2. swimming in the Ocean
Im even scared of swimming in the north sea simply bcz i cant see whats below me.
I know its stupid 2 be scared bcz its safe there but still in my mind i think about sharks n other creatures who could be below me :S
I love 2 swimm, but i prefer a swimming pool :)

3. loosing a family memeber
I think this dont need an explanation :S

4. high places
i was much more scared of it n it got better.
But still i prefer 2 stay on the ground :D

5.
To waste my Life
it sounds strange i know
Buty iam scared 2 waste my Life not doing the things that make me happy
Right now i stay home all time and i feel pretty useless, except for the part of taking care of Rayyan.
But am not only a mother iam still myself and a woman.
I wana reach my goals i wanna be creative, i wanna do new things, i wanna meet new ppl..
I just hope i can do a little more of this soon.. inshallah

So what r u scared of?

how 2 handle a baby

2010-08-19T09:35:00.005+02:00

i couldnt resist to poste them here
they just made my morning :D

they r from this website http://allfunny.net/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=235&Itemid=1

sooo sad

2010-08-19T01:47:00.002+02:00

Iam soo sad bcz my mum was supposed 2 come 2day and she couldnt :(
1 day before she should come the doctor found out she has Shingles.
Its not dangerous for her or me but it would have been for Rayyan.
So we decided she cant come and she might come after 4 weeks when she cant infect Rayyan anymore.
Still iam sad bcz i could use her support and help so much right now. I Miss her and my whole family so much :S
So inshallah we will fly 2 germany all 2gether on christmas.
I just hope it will work out cause we still need to get a german passport for Rayyan and german offices are slow..really slow

So since my mum didnt come theres nothing new in my life.
Rayyan is growing n growing :)
His smile makes me more happy than anything ever could, hes just a real joy ( when he wants 2 :D)

The last day i spend google ( googeling? googling?) for ppl from my past.
Ppl i was in schhol with and ppl who used 2 be close friends.
Its really interesting how some of them changed.
The most interesting was my frist Love :D
Well ok it wasnt love cause we were about 5 or 6 years old and just liked each other.
He was half marrocan and we played 2gether all the time. I havent sen him since we left primary school.I didnt contact him but it wasnice 2 see how hes dong and looks like now thx 2 facebook :)

Do u ever search for ppl like that with which u have no contact anymore but who used 2 be important 2 u? Its realy fun i can tell u :)

this is me

2010-08-16T09:21:00.002+02:00

thats me
awake since 3am n no sleep in sight :S

cleaning cleaning cleaning

2010-08-15T00:31:00.004+02:00

First: Ramadan Kareem
I hope all of u are having a great ramadan and the fasting isnt 2 hard on u.
I was fastong the first 2 days until i recognized my milk supply got less and i got sick :(
But inshallah i will fast some more days though i dont think i will fast all the left days as i need days where i dont fast so i will have enough milk 4 Rayyan :)

In 4 days my mother is coming and so iam busy all the time cleaning 4 her arrival.
Iam so nervous and i want everything to be perfect.
So i spend hours on cleaning the walls in the bathroom, cleaning the cooking place, the fridge and actually the whole house :D
2morrow ill clean under the couch :P
I have a list what i still have 2 do be4 my mum arrives and it includes:
- cleaning the walls and doors ( from the blood of the mosquitos my husband hunted :D)
- cleaning the guest room
- washing the bed sheets
- cleaning the windows
- cleaning the floors

So i still got a lot 2 do and it isnt so easy 2 do all that while i feel soo bad from a cold.
I get a cold 3- 5 times a year and when i get it than really bad.
Not sleeping more than 5 hours a night doesnt help either i guess.
But when my mum is here inshallah i can take some rest when she takes Rayyan :)
Im soo glad shes coming and especially in Ramadan.
I pray that Allah will open her heart and let her become a muslim that would so great.
But ill see how she reacts on Ramadan in a muslim country :)

So its 1.40am here and i have 2 finish cleaning the kitchen be4 i will go 2 get a little sleep.
Have a nice Ramadan and may Allah protect u all :D

iam tired :)

2010-08-07T16:10:00.004+03:00

These days im pretty much tired all the time :)
Rayyan just keeps changig his sleeping rhythym all he time and i cant follow up. Last night my lovly boy just slept 2 hours from 1 am until 3 am after that he decided sleeping is boring and he stayed awake until 11.30am. I managed to get a little sleep now but still iam tired as if i have never slept :S
Rayyan on the other hand is sleeping like an angel now, lets see 4 how long :D

I cant belive its been 2 months since hes born and my life has changed so much. We got more used 2 not sleep much and 2 always think of Rayyan first be4 we think of what we want ( with we i mean me n my husband :)
Alahmdulillah Rayyan is doing a lot better than in the first 5 weeks where he was keeping us stressed with his colics a lot.
Ok enough about that cause iam sure his colics are not the most interesting topic for anyone else than me :)

My mother is finaly coming 2 us on the 19 of august and i cant wait to see her again after 8 long months. She will se Rayyan and my husband for the first time and i wish everything will go well inshallah.
Since Rayyan is born, or to be true since i was in the 8th month i miss my family muchmore than be4. I miss the places where i grow up and i wish that Rayyan could go and see these amazing places and meet all of my family some day.
On the 4th september there is a family meeting and iam so sad i cant go there :S
Its the first time that my family arranged something like that and though not all family memebers are coming iam sue it would be so much fun 2 attend it.
Ar ur family doing family meetings just 2 see each other once in a year or so?
I think its a great idea and i will keep it in mind for the time hen my child/ren are grown up :)

The onething iam working on ight now is loosing the wight i got while pregnant and toning my tummy as it looks bad. i feel i look like iam still pregnant in the 5th month :(
when i weight myself last week i was shocked that i lost only 6 kg of the 16 kg that i gained. so now i eat only healthy food, no more sweets and i try 2 go walking every day with rayyan.
I hope it works bcz 4 long i cant stand myself like this. I had already 70 kg when iwent into the pregnancy and thats the maximum weight i can accept. I had the weight that i have now also 2 years before and that i lost it by a lot of sports and healthy eating so i hope this time it will be easier as its from a pregnancy and iamstill breastfeeding that should be a plus..i still have hope the breastfeeding will burn the kcal and let me loose weight :)

I think iam making way 2 much pictures of my son. My husband already complains that it takes too much space onthe laptop. But what can i do, i just cant help myself :P
Hes growing so fast and i wanna keep it as memorys.

how do i start..?

2010-07-23T03:34:00.002+03:00

My son is now over 5 weeks old and my father ( + his family) dont know about his existence :(
I i dint talked to my dad since i turned 18. We just exchnged christmas and birthday cards and i wrote him several letters 2 which i never got an answer.
Now i feel guilty that i didnt tell them about my Son and i know i have to tell them sooner or later.
But how do i do this?
I wrote him a letter which i didnt send til now bcz i feel its missing so many things.
I i wrote all the things i wanna tell him i would need like 10 pages.
I wish he had an email account so i could easily write him and send him pictures of Rayyan, but he doesnt use the internet at all :(
So i have the choice to give the letters 2 my mum and she will send them or i will send them when i go germany (hopefully on christmas)
i wish i could meet him around christmas so he could meet his grandson.
My mother will see her grandson for the first time this august and i cant wait to have her here :)
I just have 2 believe the relationship betwen my dad n me will be repaired.
I long for this since longer time and i tryd my best by writing him letters about how my life is going ( though i didnt mention iam a muslim) but sadly he never replyd. Even my granddad and my uncle couldnt explain why he didnt answer me. I guess its about his "lovly gf" who definetly dont want me back in his life, taking her precious time with him..
But Rayyan might open a door for us 2 get back to the connection we had before, inshallah.

a song..

2010-07-08T20:45:00.002+03:00

When i was pregnant in the last month i remembered this song
i didnt had internet though so i wasnt ale 2 download it or even listen it
Now that i have net again i searched for it on youtube and listen it every day :)
It in german but i translated it 2 english
This song could make me cry everytime bcz it remembers me of the time befoe the birth and bcz its just so sweet from the singer 2 write a song like that for his unborn child

Translation:

This shining in her eyes
i havent ever seen be4
shes shining from inside out
From there where u still live

since i know about ur arrival
im waiting for a new time
my world turned upside down
cause 1 + 1 = 3

the world that awaits u
isnt as it should be - no
but this still has time, donte be scared
u can really try ( thats just literally translated)

4 hand full of love cuddle u
and i swear to u, ur mother is a great woman

when u arrive
when u see the light
and that 4 the first time ever

when she sees u
when u see me
than i belive wonders wil come true

we stand with u, we two
we stand with u, from 2 make 3

u are the greatest adventure
u just missed til now
she carrys u full of proud
in her wonderfull belly

just feel comfortable in ur skin
entrusted to ur mother
ur world still stays small
and ur little sould stays pure

that something could go wrong
sure, that scares us somehow
but whatever will be
im wih u
and ur mother will gt u out of any trouble

when u arrive
when u see light
and all of that for the very first time

when she sees u
when u see me
i belive wonders will come true

we stand with u. we two
we stand with u

i cant help u until now
i cant see u
i can just think of u a lot
and u can hear me sing

when u arrive
when u see light
and all of that for the very first time

when she sees u
when u see me
i belive wonders will come true

we stand with u, we two

whats new?

2010-07-08T01:07:00.003+03:00

2day is the birthday of my husband ( just random :P)

Now my son is 3 weeks n 2days old and slowly we get more and more used 2 each other.
Hes not the easiest baby but it gets better.
He screams a lot and only calm when i breastfeed him, so literally i breastfed him all day long. Alhamdulillah he sleeps at night some hours, so i can take some rest.
I guess its bcz i stopped giving him any kind of bottle milk and my milk has 2 adjust to his need now.
I dont really get to do housework and cooking as the baby wants to be on my arm all day.
If i lay him down on the bed ( no matter if its his bed or ours) he starts to cry and just stops when i take him up and feed him :S
So i spend a lot of time holding him in my arms, which is nice some times and sometimes really making me tired.
The best is when he smiles at me or when he looks into my eyes while feeding :)
Sure there are moments where i could just cry and wish someone would take him for just 1 hour so i could do something i want, like taking a loong shower, cooking or cleaning.
Somehow i cant wait that he gets a bit older so i could play some more with him instead of just holding him :)

So literally my whole life turns around the baby right now :)

Finally home :)

2010-06-30T00:43:00.003+03:00

Long time since i had the chance to use the laptop and iam sooo glad to have it back ( net addict :P)
The last few weeks a lot happend, the biggest of it the birth of my son on the 14.6.10 :)

On the 13.6.10 i went to my family inlaws flat in downtown which is about 1,5 hours drive from here.
I planned to stay there til the birth.
Actually my birth was to be on the 13.6 but since i didnt had any contractions we didnt went there earlier.
So in the night of the 13.6 we went there and also right away to my check up at the doctor and he did something 2 make me have contractions ( no details, but it wasnt a nice feeling!)
After that i had contractions coming every 7 min for the whole night :S
At 11am we had a appointment in the hospital with my doctor for another check up and to see the hospital.
Since i had contractions i stayed there right away and we got room ( we means me, husband and mother in law)
In the afternnon the contractions got so painfull that i got an epidural which was the best thing ever :)
Finally i could relax a bit and it didnt hurt at all to take the epidual ( thx doctor fadl :)
At around 10pm they finally decided i can go to the birthroom ( alone without my husband)
Alhamdulillah my doctor and his assistent were great and supporting me soo much that i felt very comfortable :)
The birth itself wasnt so hard bcz of the epidural.
The only bad thing was the episiotomy, i didnt feel it when it was done but after the epidural stopped working i suffered a lot.
The first week after birth i suffered a lot of pain all the time, while sitting, laying and walking :(
Alhamdulillah its fine now and i dont feel any pain at all :)

My baby had some breathing problems at first so he had to stay in the hospital for 2 days :(
I went home after 1 day and i missed him so much.
Alhamdulillah hes fine now.

The first 2 weeks home with him werent so great cause we stayed at the in laws house.
That means 3 rooms from which only 2 have AC, for somtimes 6 adults and 3 kids.
Thats thx 2 my sister in law who decided to stay there too at the same time with her 2 kids.
Otherwise it would have been m e, my husband, his sister and his parents which would have been acceptable.
Anyway i cant change thier attitude...so whatever iam home now alhamdulillah
Finally in my own flat where i can walk as i like and feed my child wherever i want, and thats such a great feeling :)
My little one is doing fine and finally sleeping more so that we can take more rest 2 :)
Hes growing every day and he already started to smile :)

my big family

2010-06-05T23:57:00.004+03:00

My family is quite unusal for germans :)
My mother has 4 brothers and 7 sisiters which means she has 11 siblings.
I dont know anyone from germany who has a huge family like this, most people i know dont have more than 4 aunts/ uncles.
My father also has just 1 brother which is much more normal in germany.
Germans in generell dont get enough kids thats why they speculate that in some generations muslims gonna be the majority in germany (i have to say inshallah :D)
Having such a huge family could be great if everything was alright. Sadly in my family we dont have contact with everyone. Stil i have some great uncles and aunts on who i can trust in any situatin ( alhamdulillah)
Having such a big family didnt had much of influence on me when i was younger, but now that ill be a mother soon i think about this topic much more.
I wish my child would have contact to my family too, at least when iam in german for visits.
I already worry about how 2 establish a good contact with them and how to make him meet my father.
I dont have contact to my father since iam 18 except for birthday cards and me writing letter( that he doesnt answer :S)
But i certainly want him to have contact to my dad and 2 meet him.
The problem is my fathers girlfriend.
She is with him since many years and i never came along with her very well.
She was jealous about me too much and so did anything to make me stay away.
Now i dont care about her as long as hes happy with her, but i dont want her 2 see my son.
Why?
Bcz iam scared of the evil eye.
Might sound funny, but i do believe in it!
I believe that if i let my son stay near her for longer time her jealousy and hate might give him something like bad luck.
So i have to work out a way to meet my dad without her, which is nearly impossible cause she doesnt let him go anywhere alone ( psycho :P)

I guess im just getting worried now that the brith is sooo near :S
Inshallah all will be solved out once hes born.

Does anyone of u have such a huge family and how u cope with it if u live in another country?

This video is so great, mashallah
and it gives me hope :)

( my cat just starred at the laptop and listend very interested when the azhan in that video played, mashallah :)

Soon ill be a mum :)

2010-05-31T18:18:00.002+03:00

Now its just 13 days left if the baby comes on time :)
13 days is less than 2 weeks, i cant believe time went by so fast
The baby could come now at any time, what a scary thought :S
But inshallah he wont come before the 13.6
Still we are not 100% sure of the name and we still have to get a baby bed :S
Im getting really curious about the hospital and i hope we can go to check it this week.
I have never been in a hospital here in egypt and my impression of them isnt very good.
I heard a lot of bad storys,but i after all egyptian woman get their babys there, so why shouldnt i?
Alhamdulillah i have a good doctor who i trust :)
Now ill have to make some exercise in the last 2 weeks. I have to admit i have been a bit lazy about this til now :S
But my mum told me if i make exercise the birth will be much easier for me, so inshallah i will try this.
I wish i could go swimming but i guess ill have to stick with walking and some simple yoga.
I dont really have any other ideas of which exercise to do.

The cat ( still nameless :) already got really used to stay with us and is really a source of joy

A little creature in the house :)

2010-05-30T00:49:00.002+03:00

No its not the baby :D
Hes still where he should be and inshallah he wont be born before the due date ( 13.6)

But since last night we have a little kitten in the house :)
She was staying at the street in front of the house for long time, crying from hunger.
So after some time we took her in the house and fed her.
Shes very active and naughty :)
All day long shes haunting whatever comes her way ( carpet, my bag, hijabs,..)
I planned to buy a sherazi cat after having the baby but i guess we gonna keep this one.
After all i cant throw her out on the street, shes too young to take care of herself.
I guess shes about 3 or 4 weeks old, after all shes very tiny.
Now i just need to choose a name for her :)
Maybe ill call her tiny bcz of her size

This is her

A few Blogs i love

2010-05-12T21:42:00.003+03:00

These days are just hot here in Egypt. The temperature suddenly raised above 40C (105F).
So since we got no Ac in our Flat we went to my in-laws villa where we have a flat with AC. Unfortunatly thats all that is in the Flat ( no Fridge, kitchen, closet,..)
But we can use the kitchen and fridge down in the Flat of my in laws or in the Flat next to us which belongs to my brother in law :)
Still i miss my kitchen as i found a lot of nice recipes that i wanna try and i cant do that here.

Anyway, my Life is pretty boring these days:)
Bcz of the heat i stay inside the flat all day long and cant do much :)
So im gonna present u some BLogs that i follow and which are my favourites.

I gotta start with a Book Blog
Its called the Jacaranda Secret and its from Angela O'Brien.
I really enjoy reading the chapters of the book and i always wait for the next one :)
http://angesbook.blogspot.com/

A Blog i just found 2day is about cooking :)
It has some really delicious recipes which i will definetly try soon.
http://annies-eats.com/

This one is really nice to read too.
I love the way the sister is writing and always making me smile :)
http://texaninuae.blogspot.com/

I love this Blog, especially the last post i support 100%.
I love it bcz i can see myself in the posts.
http://baby-express.blogspot.com/

There are many more that i like and follow, but it would take too long to mention them all here right now :)

Sarcastic

2010-05-08T03:25:00.004+03:00

I dont have much to say these days :)
Iam tired most time n just wanna sleep n the rest of the time i spend with housework.
2day ( actually yesterday as its saturday now) we went out to buy some stuff and it showed me that now i got to a point where i just wanna stay home cause 2 hours out make me tired and feel weak :S
Anyway alhamdulillah we bought a bag in which we will carry the baby ( dont know the name), a mixer and some small items for the baby :)

Now iam ready to sleep 12 hours, im tired as if i did a marathon!

Random: I saw this pic in Mumin ( Fast food restaurant) and thought this is sarcastic.
I wonder what parents answer when their kids ask about the pic? Doesnt really make me wanna eat that stuff!

Some pics of Obour

2010-05-02T18:09:00.002+03:00

I just went to take a walk
* Its sooo hot outside when u wear hijab and abaya :)*

I made some nice pics of the landscape behind our house.

Exactly 6 weeks..

2010-05-02T16:32:00.003+03:00

Now its only 6 weeks until i will be a mom
Thinking of this really scares me somehow :S
6 weeks is definetly not a long time anymore and im not ready. We still need to buy several necesarry things for the baby.
Aaaannnnd theres another problem *offff*
The dcotor to who iam always going is kinda far away from here.
We drive about 1,5 hours to him throught the cairo traffic.
So now he told us he wont come to us when im giving birth, i should come to him :S
So he thinks i will stay in a car for 1,5 hours while im in huge pain?
And what if we stuck in the traffic, ill get the baby in a car? :S

Now i have 3 possibilitys what i can do:

1. I will change the doctor and give birth in the hospital which is 2 min away from our house. I know they are not as good as my current doctor but we wil check on them to see if they are acceptable.

2. I move to our old flat which is in the familys villa.
Problem: The flat is empty ( no bed, no fridge, no nothing :S)
So i would have to go downstairs to eat with his family and ill not have much privacy.
the last time i was there all the time people came in my room disturbing me :S

3. We move to a flat that belongs to my Family in law. Its in downtown and about 5 min away from my doctor. Sounds good but...
The flat is very dirty ( i mean very very very dirty!)
I dont feel comfortable to stay there cause i cant use the kitchen (2 dirty sorry)
And i use the bathroom only when its really necessary, so i wont be able to take showers a lot :S
I really dont wanna stay there cause i wont be able to clean and after all i wont be able to even make a coffee in the kitchen in the morning :(

Conclusion
I guess i will have to change the doctor, so i can at least stay in my own flat and after giving birth we wont habe to take a long way to be back home.
I just hope the hospital is good and the doctor here is trustable.
Still iam sad that i cant have my doctor there with me bcz hes really great and i trust him ( i dont trust a lot of doctors)
(if anyone want his number, just contact me :)

Inshallah there will be a good solution for us soon
This psychological stress just isnt good for me ( and there are more things that stress me) :S

A Mouse in the House

2010-05-01T17:20:00.002+03:00

Some days ago when i wnt in the kitchen and turned on the light i saw something small n black running from underneath the table to the butagas.
My first thought was its a roach but when i showed my husband how big it was he was sure its a mouse ( or rat :S)
Thats absolutly the last thing i need, a rat in my house.

But it turned out to be helpfull for me in some way :D
I begged my husband to buy a cat since long time and now that we have/had a mouse he said that we gonna buy a cat soon.
I hope he wont change his mind again about this. It would be great to have a pet in the house, i asked for that since the day that we married.
Cats are my favourite animals and i tryd to get my husband to buy one for so long, but he always said we should buy it after the baby is born.
Now inshallah we gonna buy one soon as a cat is tsill more acceptable for him than a mouse :)

A new religion?

2010-04-26T16:02:00.002+02:00

Some days ago when i was reading in a forum i found a topic called "islam isnt the fastest growing religion n the world anymore"
So i was wondering which religion is it now, maybe christianity again?

This is the answer

http://fastestgrowingreligion.com/numbers.html

The five fastest growing religions in terms of relative growth compared to existing size of religion:
1. Zoroastrianism 2.65%
2. Bahá'í 2.28%
3. Islam 2.13%
4. Mandeans 2.12%
5. Sikhism 1.87%

The five fastest growing religions by conversions (new adherents per year, in millions):
1. Christianity 2,501,396
2. Islam 865,558
3. Buddhism 156,609
4. Sikhism 28,961
5. Baha'is 26,333

The five fastest growing religions by births (new adherents per year, in millions):
1. Christianity 22,708,799
2. Islam 21,723,118
3. Hinduism 13,194,111
4. Ethnoreligionists 4,098,003
5. Animists 3,985,

When i read this the first thing that got my attention was the Name Zoroastrianism .
I never heard this before and i was wondering that how could a religion i never heard of be the fastest growing religion in the world?
Well a bit later i read " if you had a religion of five people and five more joined, that would be the fastest growing religion".
I guess thats true and that why its the fastest growing religion in the world.

But still i wondered what kind of religion is that?
So i researched about it and i found it not very interesting, to be true.
It doesnt seem to have all the prooves and the teachings that Islam have, so why would someone want to join it?
There are only about 140,000 Zoroastrians while there are 1.2 billion (about 22% of the world's population!).

I never used to research a lot about religions except for islam. I was atracted to islam already at a young age and so i got books from the library about it to understand what its really about.
I knew a lot about christianity as my uncle is a practising christiana dn teached me a lot about it ( also i used to read a children bible when iwas little).
I never felt interested to join buddism or hinduism as i saw it more like a game. Making statues and all those colorfull rituals. But i couldnt see a sense in all of that.
A kind of religioni read about, at least its called religion while i wouldnt say it is one, is Scientology.
I never read the books bcz i planned to join. I just read it bcz i wanted to understand how could people fall for this strange ideas?
I mean seriously, how can u possibly belive we are all Aliens adn now we have to pay all our money for scientology courses to be happy and satisfied?
Sorry but a religion that tells u to give them their money isnt real!
Islam tells u to give ur money to the poor ( the zakat) but they never tell u that u have to pay for the lessons or for any leaders.
Alahmdulillah another reasons why Islam is the truth :)
I couldnt be happier with any other religion.
Everything in Islam makes sensen for me and if islam was followed by everyone, there wouldnt be killing, stealing or poverty. I belive that, but i dont think that gonna happen as there will always be people who like to do he bad things and dont care what will happen to them after death.
But inshallah a lot of people see the truth of Islam and follow it :)

Shopping while pregnant

2010-04-26T15:28:00.002+02:00

Normally i love shopping ( especially baby clothes at the moment)
But right now going 2 buy clothes 4 myself is more like a nightmare.
Not only that i feel iam walking like a duck, i also see all those wonderfull clothes that are not fitting me anymore :S
I think im just tired of being pregnant, and alhamdulillah its just 7 weeks left.
Now when i go out i get tired very fast and im not so much intrested anymore to spend much time on looking at things for the flat or for the baby bcz it makes me exhausted.
When i went out on friday to buy something 2 wear i had real problems 2 find anything at all that would fit me.
I could buy trousers which are specially for pregnant, but they arent really islamic as they r tight and i dont like them much.
So i was looking for a maxi-dress, over which i could just wear a loose shirt to cover my arms.
Alhamdulillah after a long search i found one for 150 egyptian pound :)
I was also intrested to buy a butterfly-abaya, but my husband didnt liked the idea.
He said i look like a pigeon when i wear it :S
Well so now i just need 1 more abaya to wear in the pregnancy and than i think it should be ok for the next 7 weeks. I just have 2 dresses and 1 abaya at the moment to go out with.
I dont really feel attractive anymore with that big belly and always wearing the same clothes :S
I miss to wear nice clothes at home and skirts outside the home so i just pray that i will get in shape fast after the pregnancy, inshallah.

Yesterday i finally got to the doctor for the check up. First he checked my blood pressure and he checked it several times cause it was so low.
Than he made the ultrasound and honestly i dont really reconized much on the monitor.
When i finally thought i recognized the babys face and hands from the side, the doctor told us it was the face which was looking in the direction of the ultrasound.My husband too cant figure out what he sees on the ultrasound :)
Unfortunatly he wasnt able to get me a good picture of thebaby head ( i had asked him for one to send it to my father). But inshallah next time i will get a good picture, if the baby lays in a good position.
The doctor also checked my weight.
I gained 13 kg until now :(
This sounds too much for me, but he didnt commented much about it, so i guess its not too bad.
After all im happy the baby is fine and everything is going ok. Now i will have to make a blood test soon to see if everyhing is ok with the blood sugar and the iron in my body. Ima pretty scared of taking blood, its one of my biggest fears. But the laboratory here is really good and the take blood without hurting much, alhamdulillah. I guess i will make the test soon and i will have to fast about 6 hours before it. But that wont be too hard for me i think.
In any wayi thank Allah for giving me such a good going pregnancy.

Now 7 weeks left, i should prepare for giving birth, but i dont think about it too much bcz it scares me to think of it :)
It will come out anyway, so i think no need to worry so much about what COULD happen.
I believe in my strength, that all woman have when it comes to this topic, at least if u trust in Allah and in urself.
Inshallah everything will go fine and i just need to finish shopping the things that are still needed, so we be ready for our Son :)

May Allah bless all the pregnant woman out there who are going through hard times and having difficult pregnancys.

Things i use every day

2010-04-22T20:16:00.004+02:00

I guess i have too much free time these days :)
So i was thinking what i use every day that makes my days look like same?
And i realized there r not so many things that i use every single day.
These are what i could think of

Nescafe with Milk
I love it and drink it every day
Though only 1 - 2 cups while iam pregnant.
I just need Nescfae in the morning to make me happy :)

Lux Soap
I love this soap, it smells so good
Mostly i use the peachy one, its smells great
And as i have 2 make wudhu up to 5 times a day i use this soap a lot .

The prayer rug and Hijab
I use them every day for the prayer and i love my prayer rug.
I got it as a present when i was in Alex and i took it with me to germany, uk and now back to where its produced. Though the person who gave it to me bought it in saudia, so this prayer rug traveld a lot :)

My Mobile
These days i call my husband about 2 times a day to check on him as he comes home so late.
I also use it to note our shopping list and other things that just come to my mind ( things we need, quotes i suddenkly remember, songs i wanna remember).
I have a samsung corby and iam really happy with it. Its much easier to handle than the samsung omnia that my husband has ( i could never handle that one)
I also use it 2 take pictures or just 2 play :)

Make Up
I use mascara and eyeliner every day.
Not all day long but i use it before my husband comes home :)
Just trying to look good for my husband.
I actually use more make up at home and just a very less when i go out.

What about u, what do use every day?
If u answer it on ur blog let me know ( im curious :D)

A good Muslim?

2010-04-22T16:57:00.003+02:00

Iam pregnant now about 32 week which means only about 18 weeks to go. Time to get nervous and finish all the little details :)
Now i get email every week which tell me about the development about my baby and what coiuld be going on with me. Its really intresting to know how much ur baby might weight and whats the newest development.
Now this week the mail told me things like the babys weight is supposed to be around 4 Pound and it is about 17 inches long (ca. 43cm..sounds huuugeeee).
Something else they said was really surprising me as i didnt feel that its like that.
They said: Your baby sleeps approximately 90 to 95 percent of the day now
My little one is sometimes very active for 1 or 2 days and than again lazy for the same time period.
But he is always awake and kicking at the prayer time, which make me wonder if all babys do that and we just dont recognize? Or is it a good sign that he will be a good muslim?
Ill just stay with the 2nd thought and hope its a good sign that he will be a good muslim, inshallah.
I missed my doctors appointment last weekend, so i dont really know how much weight i gained til now and whats new. But iam sure everything is ok as i feel better than before and im taking a lot of rest.
Actually i dont wanna know how much weight i gained :)
Im sure it will be 2 much as i cant stay away from sweets these days.
But i really start to miss doing sports, so i still got the hope that all that extra weight wont stay long after giving birth, inshallah.
My sister in law needed about 3 months to get back in shape after having her 2nd daughter and she didnt do any kind of sports.
But i know myself, i gain weight easily and have 2 work hard to loose it. I got that from my mummy as my dad can eat what he wants without gaining weight, lucky him.

Plzzzzz answer my Poll up there in the right Corner :)
Id like to know what u think of the Name Fares. Since iam not arabic and i have no Idea about this Names id like to know if u think it sounds good or bad and if its a good Name to choose?

Who is scared of spiders?

2010-04-21T18:31:00.004+02:00

Iam scared to death of spiders
I know theres no reason to be scared of them, most of them arent dangerous and they are probably more scared of me than iam of them.
But still when i seea big spider on the wall i just wanna run away and wait til my husband removes it.
These days there are a lot of spiders coming into our apartment, i guess they are hiding from the heat that is outside. Alhamdulillah they are still small spiders, though they still look scary.
But i can remove them by myself.
If they were bigger that would be a problem, cause than i would need 2 wait for my husband to do it and hes not much home these days :S
About 2 weeks ago we had a dung beetle in the house and it scared me like hell.
First i just heard a noise under the bed and thought its a mouse, but i couldnt see anything under the bed. Some min later i saw the beetle next to the bed and i directly went to get a glass to put it over it, so it cant run away.
At that time i didnt know its not dangerous as i never have seen one before and the size of it was really scary to me.
So i waited the 2 hours til my husband come home 2 throw it out of the house. Every 5 min i was checking if its still there and didnt manage to escape somehow.
Im not this scared of mouse or rats, cause i know they will run away from human.
Its tsrange actually that iam this scared of bugs ( especially spiders) cause i remember that when i was a kid i used to catch them and play with them.
Now i cant even watch pictures of spider without feeling very uncomfortable.
I planned on attaching a picture of a spider 2 this post, but i couldnt handle to watch spider pictures more than 2 min. It made me feel like they might be around me now :S

Are u scared of spiders, or u sont mind seing them in ur house?

shopping for the baby

2010-04-21T00:11:00.003+02:00

A few days ago i went to Carrefour (after begging my husband :D)
And these days they have so many cute Babyclothes, i could just buy all of them .
But i had 2 keep myself so i bought just 3 items.
I just love the baby clothes from Disney they are super cute :)
Inshallah i will buy another 3 of the babybodys soon and than i have nearly everything ill need for the baby. Only the bed is missing, but thats my husbands buisness 2 bring it.

The Clothes with the Bee atracted me since longer time and i finally decided 2 buy them.
I think they will be looking so cute on my little baby boy :)

I nearly bought a pink babybody 2 but i decided it would be bad if people ask me if our son is a girl :S
My husband though would have bought it bcz i told him i love the colour :)

Im a bit sad that my family in law doesnt show much of intrest but im sure it will change whenthe baby is born,inshallah :)
My mother on the other side seems to already go shopping for the baby :D
She always asks me what i still need and she will bring it when she comes to visit.

We also finally got pretty sure about a name alhamdulillah
Its 99% sure that his name will be Fares :)
My husband and me liked that name when we first got to know that iam pregnant.
And i think as it was our first thought, maybe it was the right one.
Well i think we will finally decide when we see him for the first time:)

This are the things i bought for him

My home town

2010-04-20T19:42:00.004+02:00

Since some days i start to miss my home -city.
I just miss the park where i used to spend time since im a little kid, the beach where i went 2 swim and took long walks. I miss my family and i miss the shops where u can buy all those things that arent available here.

Still iam happy 2 live here.
My new life is here, my husband, my family in law and my baby will grow up here :)

So im gonna introduce my home-city to u.
Maybe if anyone of u ever gonna make holiday in germany, u can visit it as its a tourist city :)

The name of my home-city is Husum.
In my city are living about 20.000 people, so its not a big city at all, especially compared to cairo.
Still there are a lot of things to see if u visit it.
For me, the most amazing place there is the castle park.
The park is surrounding a castle, where wifes of some high danish lords went to live after their husband died. of course that was in the past and now there is a museum in the castle.
But thats not the highlight of the park.
Every year in spring the park turns violet from all the crocus that are growing everywhere.
A lot of people come to husum just to see this amazing event.
The crocus have been planted in the past by monks who used them to colour their robes.

Husum is directly beside the north sea so u can go to the sea every day if u please to.
There are also several special places where u can go swimming in the sea in the summer.
The only thiong that keep u from swimming is that the water isnt there all the time :)
We have tides, which means that every 6 hours the water goes and than again after 6 hours it comes back.
Even u cant swim when the water is gone there is the possibility to take a walk on the mudflap, but only with a proffesional, who knows where to go.
A lot of people get in trouble when they go out in the madflap alone and they wether get surprised by the water coming back or bcz the they tap into places where u can sinck into the mud. I once went about 100 m out in the mud and i sank into it to my hips and it was really hard to get out of it again :)

My city is famous for the poet theodor storm.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Theodor_Storm
He wrote a lot of novells, like Immensee and Pole Poppenspeeler and also a lot of poems.
My favourite poem from him is about husum, in that one he decribes the city very accurate.

Sugar Rush

2010-04-14T17:56:00.000+02:00

The last few days i didnt ate any sweets, but 2day i got so hungry on chocolate that i went to the shop n bought 2 Moro.

Moro is Nougat and Caramel coated with Cadburry Dairy Milk chocolate. One Moro has 206 kcal and 7.8 gr Fat Not healthy but tasty :)

I ate them both at once n i feel i shouldnt have.
That was just too much sugar after some days sugar abstinence.
Normally i eat a bit of chocolates ( or other sweets) every day, at least since iam pregnant.
Be4 i used to eat a small piece of chocolate every 2nd or 3rd day.
Iam just addicted 2 chocolate especially galaxy ( cookie crumble), Rittersport ( yogurt) and Toblerone. Since Rittersport yogurt isnt available in egypt and toblerone is hard 2 get i mostly take galaxy or something called pepita.
My husband though isnt found of chocolate, i guess its just a "woman thing" to be so found of chocolate. All females i know ( except my mother) love chocolate :)
I like anything to do with it like hot chocolate, chocolate milkshake, brownies or chocolate cake (hells temptation is the best!).

When i was a kid i ate only white chocolate and my mum had a hard time finding Easter-Bunnys in white chocolate :)
My taste changed when i became a teenager and since than i love milk chocolate.
I dont like dark chocolate at all, its just not sweet enough 4 me. Though i still like white chocolate i would always prefer milky one and here in egypt its hard 2 find a good quality white chocolate.

My fav chocolate cake
Hells Temptation

U need:
175 g dark Chocolate
250 g Butter
4 eggs
100 gr brown sugar
75 g white sugar
1 Teaspoons Butter vanilla flavoring
250 g Flour
100 g chocolate-powder
2 Teaspoons Backing-powder
1 Teaspoons Sodium
1 pinch Salt
350 g Sour cream
250 g dark chocolate
50 g Butter
200 ml cream

1. Melt the 175 gr dark chocolate in water-bath.

2. Meanwhile grease a spring form of 26 cm in diameter,put it at a cold place.

3. Now stir the melted chocolate with 250 gr butter.
Put the mix aside and heat the oven on 200 degree celsious.

4. Mix the flour, backing-powder, sodium and salt. Put it aside.

5. Now put the eggs ina bowl and add the brown sugar and the white sugar while stirring it.
Now add the chocolate-butter and mix it.

6. Add the flour mix and the sour cream and stir it all well.

7. Put the mix in the spring form and bake it in the oven for 35 - 40 min

8. After the backing let it cool in the spring form.

9. Meanwhile melt the left over chocolate (250 gr ) in water-bath. Gradually add the butter and
than the cream til its becomes a a uniform, smooth and nice shiny Cream. If its 2 soft let it cool 4 some min.

10. When the cake is cool down, get it out of the sprig form carefully.
Now cut the cake 1 time diagonally and fill it with some of the chocolate cream and put it back together.
Than rake the cake with the rest of the chocolate cream.

Best way 2 keep it is in the fridge, but get it out before eating so it will be not 2 cold.

Pakistan

2010-04-12T17:34:00.001+02:00

After finishing highschool i had the unique chance to spend some time in Pakistan.
I was there for 1,5 months and i stayed with a nice family in a small city in the north of Pakistan. The time i spend there was in the winter, so alhamdulillah it wasnt so hot when i was there.
Pakistan (just as India) has a very bad image here in the arab countrys. In generell most arabs think indians/pakistanis are dirty and are all worshipping cows. Still a lot of woman here love to watch the Bollywood movies.
Sadly they dont know much about the healthy indian food, the colourfull culture and that a lot of people there are even muslims.

Pakistan had been indeed a part of India until the muslims of India decided to seperate from the rest of the country to build their own State called Pakistan.
Since than they had 2 fight for their right of independence and until today Pakistan and India have a huge Disput with each other.
India is most famous for their colourfull Movies produced by the Bollywood Industry.
Though this country has to offer much more than that.
One of the greatest offers India has, is the Food which is healthy and rich of Spices.
Since pkaistan has been a part of India the cuisine is almost the same, except for the fact that inPakistan the Pig meat is replaced by Cow meat since Muslims dont eat Pig meat.
Also the landscapes in both countrys are breath-taking.
No one would expect Hills covered with Snow in this counrtys which are mostly known to be hot and full of jungles.
Even this countrys are still 3rd World countrys, they have a lot to offer and they import many goods all around the world.
Once of the most imported goods from India and Pakistan are Spices such as Cardamom, Cinnamon, Safran and many more.
Also the famous curry has been found in India, though not by Indians but by British. They tryd to get the taste they got to know inIndia and so they invented this mixture of Spices called Curry.
If you ask for Curry in India they will propably offer you a complete Meal. Curry stands in India for a Meal, wether vegetables or Meat, cooked with Safran and in most cases with coconut milk.
Another thing that became very popular in the last years and that is original Indian, is Yoga.
Yoga has been, since centurys, a way to meditate and to train your muscles.
India and Pakistan ahve a lot to offer and a lot to see.
A travek there is certainly no waste and it will open your eyes to a world you wouldnt expect :)

I wish i could go again to Pakistan 2 meet all the nice and lovly people again, but i dont think that gonna happen.
Still it was a great experience that i dont wanna miss and iam glad 2 share some pics of this with u, i hope u enjoy it :)

A Pakistani wedding

The traditional Pakistani Dress for males

Lake lalasar

Alexandria

2010-04-11T16:21:00.000+02:00

On the 31.12.2008 i went from Cairo to Alexandria by Train.
Alhamdulillah i had a friend there who organised a flat for me.
Before i lived with my aupair family in Cairo/Gizeh but my time there was over and i wanted to stay a bit in egypt :)

The Travel to Alex wasnt 2 bad as i had a 1st class ticket for the train. The trains here arent so nice normally but i had luck i guess and they are way better than the microbusses.
(Microbusses are like the most dangerous thing after the tuck tuck here in egypt. They drive as fast as possible and have a lot of accidents)
When i reached in Alex my friend directly took me to the flat so i could sign the contract.
The flat had 2 bedrooms, was furnitured and located in miyami which is a good place 2 be as a foreigner. I didnt expect that the place where i live would be this good connected 2 malls and even internet cafes. Alhamdulillah it was really a blessing.

I stayed in Alex about 3 months, from which i stayed only 1 month in this flat and then moved 2 another one cause in the first one was no hot water and no washing machine which was quite annoying sometimes.Another thing that was really annoying me in that flat, and also in the next one was that i didnt get a key for the main door. That meant i ahd 2 wait til the doorman opend the door in the morning n i had 2 be home before he locked it up at night.
Alhamdulillah the doorman in my 2nd flat, mustafa, was opening quite early and locking up at night not 2 early. he was in generell a very nice person and so was his family ( though they didnt understood english at all :)

This flat wasnt as nice as the other one when it comes 2 the furniture but it had the necessary hot water and was simply safer for me.
In the time that i stayed there i spend a lot of time at the beach and i just got 2 love it.
It was winter time, so there havent been much people at the beach. Still there have been some male individuals who obviously love 2 pester females.
They just keep following u n trying 2 talk 2 u.
I made the mistake 2 answer them by saying "emshi" ( go away) or other stuff ( dont really remember) which didnt made them go away. Now i know that i shouldnt have answered them, my husband informed me that "any" answer will show them that u r intrested. You should just not answer and not look at them 2 show them u dont want any contact 2 them.

The rest of the time i used 2 study arabic, wether alone or with my friend who acted as my arabic teacher :)
In that time i learned 2 read and write arabic, which helps me now a lot.
Mostly we met in a cafe and studyd there. My favourite cafe is the Moonlight which is located in the beginning in the 45 Street in Miyami ( Maybe that helps any of u :D)
I really enjoyed this time without much responsebilitys. The money for the flat and my lifestyle came from my father.
( he still pays some money 2 me which he should have paid wheni was a kid)

After this time in Alex i longed to live in egypt again but for longer time and with a real job.
So when i left 2 germany i had the plan 2 come back and work here :)
Obviously plans dont always work the way u want, as iam here and but dont work.
But alhamdulillah i came to the place i wanted and even got married.
But i wish 2 visit alex again, as i miss the sea and the nice air there.
My family in law has a house there, so maybe we gonna go there some time :)
I hope so, and until than i can still watch the pics of my time in alex.

Are u serious?

2010-04-10T19:33:00.000+02:00

Some time ago i set up a new email adress which i use only for real estate and work, since i dont like 2 mix up private and work all the time.
It already been usefull to me when i was writing 2 some clients of my husband about flats. I wrote them bcz they were german, so it was easier for them 2 communicate with me in german than with my husband in english :)

I also gave his mail on a site where i put an add, looking for a job which i can from home.
And 2day i got a really strange email and i guess that person got my email there.
First i thought its some kind of joke, but propably this person is serious about his words.In the first the mailsounds like i have written 2 him before so i tryd 2 remember, but as i went on reading, it became sure that i for sure havent written 2 this individual!
I cant believe people are like this at all, its just discusting.
But well, see urself. This is what he wrote me:

T M to me (decent_secret@hotmail.com)
Hi,
I'm visiting cairo now and saw ur AD; You sound a cool well educated female and I'm sure that time with you will be fun; I thought that I will be lucky if you accepted to spend PRIVATE time together where I enjoy you as a person and as a sexy female. I'm sure that you will have also good time with me and as partners will appreciate you financially in a very good and respected way.Please think about it and you can ask me anything you like and I promise to respect privacy and of course will do my best so you have fun time.

Take care

Well this person propably doesnt know iam a muslim, married and pregnant in the 8th month.
But why writing this 2 a female u dont know anyway?
Seriously, how can someone sent a mail like this 2 a add where a female is looking for a homejob?
If hes lookign for "this kinda things", than that is for sure the wrong place.
Not 2 mention thats its discusting anyway. If he has "needs" he could get married and didnt need 2 be this pevert, annoying woman he doesnt know with his mails.

Alhamdulillah i dont have anything 2 do with this kinda ppl n just have female friends, that makes life a lot easier :)
Am so happy 2 have all these wonderfull woman in my life, even they all live far away from me, i know they r trustfull muslimas onwho i always can depend.
Have a nice weekend everyone.

Trust and Forgiveness

2010-04-08T17:41:00.000+02:00

There are less people that i trust completly, i actually can count them with one Hand.
There would be my Husband, my Mother, my Uncle and my best Friend.
These are the people that i trust because time showed that i can trust them and i think it would be sad if i didnt trust my mother or my husband, wouldnt it?
For me trust needs time 2 develope and i trust people when its proved that this certain person doesnt act against me. That doesnt mean i suspect bad things from people i get 2 know, but i wouldnt for example trust them 2 help me when iam really in trouble.

I trust my husband that he wont cheat on me, though it would be so easy for him.
He spends a lot of time out of he house and he passes by places where he easily could meet any nice girls. Im sure he sees a lot of beautifull girls when hes heading from one work-place 2 another.
But i trust he would never flirt with them or exchange numbers.
I know he chatted with a lot of girls before we got married and though he stoped 2 chat at all, he didnt delete them cause he didnt wanted 2 hide anything from me.
Being open and telling each other if anything happens strenghtens our trust 2 each other.

My husband on the other side has another theory about trust.
When he meet anyone new, he tests them and if they pass it, he trusts them.
He said that a person can always betray u, no matter how long u know them. But if u test them u can be more secure that they wont cheat u.
Not a bad theory i think, though i wouldnt adjust 2 it, as i dont like 2 test people.

But what happens if someone broke ur trust?
Can u forgive and trust them again or u wont trust them ever again.
Just some days ago i read something that made me think about this and i think its a very wise saying ( its in german,but i translated it)
" If u like a human, than u have 2 understand him. And not see his mistakes here, there and everywhere. Look at it with love and forgive. Are u are also not free of mistakes. Think about how many times in life people have forgiven u "
Its from my Uncle and hes completly right.
I dont stop trusting just because i got dissappointed once, though it may be hard, i would try 2 forgive and trust this person again.
Of course my trust would be less for some time and if his person breaks my trust again it might vanish. But i would forgive him and still trust, as i wish he would do the same when i did a mistake.

Sure this doesnt work if that certain person hurted u in purpose and in a very bad way. And if that person doesnt care just like he/she doesnt apologize. Than it would be hard 2 forgive and trust again. And maybe it would be even impossible.

Try ur best to forgive people who hurt u and to trust the people close to u.
It will not only make u seem a better person but it will also make u more happy and satisfied with life.

Searching a job and friends

2010-04-06T14:48:00.000+02:00

When i got married i thought am not gonna work, i actually always wanted 2 be a housewife.
But i discovered that at the moment its not enough for me.
Im staying home all day and i have nothing 2 do except a little cooking and cleaning.
Inshallah when the baby is there and when we moved 2 our house ( pary that it will finish soooon)
i will have more 2 do so maybe ill not work.
But righ now im looking for any job which i can do from home.
Just anything which will keep me busy a few hours a day n which will give me some money for myself :)
Its not that easy though to find a job like that here in egypt.
Im searching online and i searched a lot of websites already and applyd for several jobs.
Most companys dont even answer :S
But i got one email 2day where igot invited for an interview 2morrow. The problem is i dont know if i can do that job from home or i have 2 do it in their office?
Its something about customer service.
I wish i will find anything fitting for me fast.

The other thing i struggle with is finding friends here.
Since i cant drive i need 2 find people whihc are living here next 2 me so i can meet them, without my husband driving me.
I was supposed 2 meet someone 2day in citystars but my husband cant drive me :S
So i added a lot of girls on facebook who are supposed 2 live here :)
Its definetly not easy 2 meet people if u dont go out a lot.
And wher ei live is nothing going on, its so boring here :S
There are just 2 cafes and no clubs wher ei could go, not even courses which i could attend.
All of that is in downtown and i just cant go there on my own, at least not when iam pregnant like this ( inshallah after brith i will earn 2 do it!)
So iam hoping, wishing, praying that fb will help me 2 get 2 know some nice grils from here, who i can meet and have some fun with :)

Note: I have 2 learn driving! HAVE TO!
Its annoying 2 depend on my husband 2 drive me where i wanna go and public transportationisnt really the best in here :(
( On the other side am scared the car will stop somewhere when i drive and ill be lost :S)

Life goes on..

2010-04-05T22:43:00.000+02:00

Do u know when u feel like its over?
Like u cant go on?
Well life always goes on
At least thats my experience :)
I felt like that several times since i came 2 egypt but life always goes on
After bad times, good times come around, alhamdulillah.
I had many arguments with my husband, sometimes about stupid little things and sometimes about really important things.
And though sometimes i felt like its over n i have 2 leave, iam still here :)
Marriage is a lot harder than i thought, its a whole lot of work!

I know that arguments will happen again n that bad times may come around, but i pray that we will stay strong and stay 2gether, inshallah.
A big issue we had ( still have) is that i want 2 go out and he doesnt.
Its not like i wanna go out every day and 2 special places.
I just wanna go once or twice a week 2 a cafe near our house ( quite cheap, alhamdulillah)
Just 2 get out and not stay home all the time.
But my husband loves 2 stay home, hes a real couch potatoe :)
We both still need 2 work on ourselfs and work on our marriage, inshallah.

2day he accepted 2 go n buy some stuff from Abu Zekry ( a food shop)
so we went there and bought some food we needed aaannnndd
Chocolate for me :)
I found a new sweet 2 satisfy my sweets addiction
Its called PAPITA
and its a mix of chocolate, milk cream and cookie
Its really cheap with the price of 1.30 eg pound which is less than half euro!
(Galaxy coasts about 4 pound in same size)

Thats it :D

An egyptian wedding

2010-04-04T17:50:00.000+02:00

On Friday i attended my first egyptian marriage :)
It was really nice and the arrangements were great.
The One who married was the cousin of my husband, who is considered the most beautifull girl in the family :)
She looked great in her dress, mashallah
And i have 2 say egyptian weddings are much better than german ones. More entertaining and more fun.
The couple was dancing all the time. i dont know how they managed that, after all it was more than 5 hours of dancing for them :)
And they both seemed so happy, inshallah they will have a great life 2gether!

The Entrance with the guest book

The room where the wedding took place

The top of the room

The couple when they entered

Isnt this girl adorable?( dont know who she is though)

Marriage

2010-04-02T00:19:00.001+02:00

#CASE 1

Getting married is like going to a restaurant with friends. You order what you want, then when you see what the other fellow has, you wish you had ordered that.

#CASE 2

At the cocktail party, one woman said to another, "Aren't you wearing your wedding ring on the wrong finger??" The other replied, "Yes, I am. I married the wrong man."

#CASE 3

Before a man is married, he is incomplete. Then when he is married, he is finished.

#CASE 4

Marriage is an institution in which a man losses his bachelor's degree and the woman gets her master's status.

#CASE 5

A little boy asked his father, "Daddy, how much does it cost to get married??" And the father replied, "I don't know son, I'm

still paying for it."

#CASE 6

Young son : "Is it true, Dad, I heard that in some parts of Africa, a man doesn't know his wife until he marries her?"

Dad : "That happens in most countries son."

#CASE 7

Then there was a man who said, "I never knew what real happiness was until I got married, and then it was too late."

#CASE 8

A happy marriage is a matter of give and take; the husband gives and the wife takes

#CASE 9

When a newly married man looks happy, we know why. But when a ten-year married man looks happy, we wonder why. Affair ?

#CASE 10

In the first year of marriage, the man speaks and the woman listens. In the second year, the woman speaks and the man listens. In the third year, they both speak and the neighbors listen.

#CASE 11

After a quarrel, a wife said to her husband, "You know, I was a fool when I married you." And the Husband replied, "Yes, dear, but I was in love and didn't notice it."

#CASE 12

A man inserted an 'ad' in the classified : "Wife wanted". The next day, he received hundreds letters. They all said the same thing "You can have mine."

#CASE 13

When a man opens the door of his car for his wife, you can be sure of one thing : either the car is new or his wife is new.

#CASE 14

A woman was telling her friend : "It is I who made my husband a millionaire."

"And what was he before you married him?" the friend asked. The woman replied, "A Billionaire."

True or Not ?

wahshteny awi ya ummi ( i miss u so much my mother)

2010-03-30T17:28:00.000+02:00

Ya mama i miss u so much 2day

I wish i could just sit with u and talk 2 u about anything like we used 2 do.
I wish i could tell u about all my problems and get a hug from u. I wanna tell u all the things i cant tell u bcz i dont want u 2 worry about me. I need ur advice ya mama. What would u do if u were in my place?
I feel lonly without u, bcz u r the only person in this world who loves me unconditional!

I know we havent been this close always and u dont know how happy iam that we are able 2 hug each other now and talk like friends, something we couldnt do when i was younger.
Its so sad that we are so far from each other just now when our connection became better n better.
I know i havent been a good daughter always, i made u so much problems when i was a teenager and i mad ur life so hard. Im truly sorry for it and i wish i could make it up 2 u. Now i will be a mother myself soon, i just wish u were here with me and help me with all those little things that u know better than me.

Its breaking my heart that i cant be near u and take care of u, give u that little presents i used 2 bring u and cook for u. U dont know how hard it was for me 2 leave when i see u still struggle with ur injury. I swear if u were here i would do anything 2 make life easier for u, just as tryd when i was there after ur accident.
I just want u 2 be as happy as possible, and i wish u wil be happy even iam far from u.
I wish for u that u will find a lot of new people that u can spend ur time with, that u find something that makes u really happy, maybe find love.
U deserve it more than anyone else that i know, bcz u always give and do everything for the people around u while never asking for anything back.
I truly dont know a person that is as strong and loving as u are.

Bahbek Mama
I love u...Ich hab dich lieb mama

Take a walk n enjoy

2010-03-29T17:37:00.000+02:00

Since i decided to be more active and not sit in the house all day, depending on my husband, i feel much better.
2day i took a walk 2 discover my neighbourhood.
The most intresting thing for me are the street cats :D
I love them and i wish i could just sit down and pet them. But as am pregnant i stay a bit away from them. When iam not pregnant anymore i will for sure do it again, though i would only do it if no one see me cause the egyptian don t understand if u r nice 2 street cats.
While i was walking i passed by some shops n decided 2 by onion.
Wrong decision!
The guy who sold the vegetables was very local and i discovered my arabic isnt good enough 2 understand him :S
I told him " ayza wahid kilo basil" ( i want 1 kilo onion)
What i forgot is that onion means basal n not basil, so he didnt understood me until i showed him what i wanted. He asked me if iam syrian cause i didnt understood most of what he said :D
Actually i felt really embarrased that i wasnt able 2 communicate with him :(
When i lived in alex i was able 2 buy vegetables and the shopkeeper understood me always. But he wasnt that local i guess.
Conclusion: Study more arabic..especially the pronounciation!
Alhamdulillah buying some chipsy in another shop went well and i understood the shopkeeper. But that wasnt hard anyway as i just asked "bekam?" ( how much does it coast)
and his answer "setta wo noss" ( 6,5) wasnt hard 2 understand either, alhamdulillah :)

A bit blurry but the way he ( or she?) is looking me was just worth a pic

mood : feeling more independent and happy

Dogs are haram..

2010-03-28T17:33:00.000+02:00

But that doesnt mean we can treat them bad!
There is even a hadith which states a woman ( prostitute) who gave water 2 a thirsty dog wnet 2 heaven for her deed. And a woman who mistrested a cat went 2 hell!

We had a dog at my in laws home.
She was there for security and 2 keep the rats away.
Now some time ago she got babys, but sadly only 2 of 5 survived :(
I blame my husbands brother as he was to take care of them but he didnt really care!
The dog was staying on the roof which was like a huge terasse and she could go down into the garden at any time she liked. The little ones stayed at the roof as they were 2 small 2 go down the stairs.

But now someone seemed 2 have poisend them :(
My husbands brother called us some days ago that the dogs died and they were throwing up blood before that :(
I dont get why he didnt get the vet who is having his place not far from the house.
Arent the dogs worth to get help from us?
I know that if we have been there my husband would have done anything 2 save them, as he loved that dog so much.
We actually wanted 2 take one of the babys to our place but we dont have so much place and my husband had doubts so we didnt do it.
I wish we had, cause it would be still alive :(

These are some pictures of them, dont they look so sweet and innocent?
How could anyone harm them???

Strange habbits?

2010-03-28T15:23:00.000+02:00

Do u have any strange habbits?
Strange annoying or just different habbits?
I actually figured out that i got a few of them :D

Like i HAVE to clean the diashes ( and everything else) right after eating. I cant let them stand around, even if its just for a short time. It just makes me feel uncomfortable when they stand there in the kicthen and i have to think how hard it will be to clean them later.

Another habbit that has 2 do with food 2, is that i cant let any pot open ( with food inside of course).
I always have 2 cover them. Though there are no bugs in my house( alhamdulillah) i still feel anything could fal into the food if i leave it uncovered.
And it absolutly drives me crazy when my husband eats from it and than leave them uncovered *grrr*

I tend 2 write lists for everything. Absolutly everything :)
I write lists for shopping, for my daily dutys, for my goals, for things we will need in the future, for some money calculations ( which is unnecessary),...
I just love 2 sort things and writingit down help me with that.
My husband thinks thats bcz iam german..well might be :D

Iam sure there is more but i just cant think of more now, maybe i should ask my husband :)

Mood: Missing my husband kteer

Mistress of Spices

2010-03-27T13:47:00.000+02:00

MBC Persia was shwoing the movie mistress of spices last night, though i couldnt see the whole movie cause it was simply 2 late n i needed to sleep (about 3 am)i liked it. ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PWps7RYW2m8 ) Beware this movie has some scenes which we muslims not supposed 2 watch so just ignore them and close ur eyes :)
I have been reading the book before which is from my all time favourite writer Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni. Its not my favourite book from her but still a good one.
Like usually the book is better than the movie but the movie wasnt so bad and it made me wanna go 2 any spices Bazar 2 spend a little fortune on spices :)
(Inshallah i will go 2 a spices shop soon 2 get some spices i havent been able 2 get here til now like mustard seeds).
I have been in pakistan before and ever since i love to cook with indian spices, they just have such a richness of spices which make cooking real fun.
My husband uses 2 say he hates indian food ( justr like he dislikes india), but when i cook it for him he liked the food. Propably cause i never tell him that its inidan food ;)
Something i do regulary and which i really adore is indian chai.
Here in Egypt chai is simply black tea, but in india and pakistan chai has another meaning, its black tea with milk and spices and its really lovly.
When i was on diet before this was my swet treat every day :D
Now here is how 2 do it:

1. Boil some water and add black tea( not the tea bags if possibl). If u are very unsure about the amount than just atke 1 cup of water.
When it boils and the tea has a nice dark colour than add some milk.
The colour should be light brown after ading the milk, so dont add 2 much or 2 less.
The colour should be like in the picture below.

2. Now crash some cardamom seeds ( i take mostly 2 or 3) and add them to the tea.
Add some cinnamon powder ( or fresh cinnamon stick) and a tiny peace of ginger ( fresh or dryd)

3. Now let the mix cook for some time, when it boils turn the heat low and let it simmer for a little bit (maybe 2 min, this isnt necessary but maked the taste much better)

4. Add sugar and than sieve it into a cup.
And enjoy it :)

Now some about the lovly spices used in this drink.
Lets start with cinnamon, which we all know and love in our sweets.
And that the health benefits:

Cinnamon has been reported to have remarkable pharmacological effects in the treatment of Type 2 diabetes mellitus and insulin resistance.
Cinnamon has traditionally been used to treat toothache and fight bad breath and its regular use is believed to stave off common cold and aid digestion.

Cardamom
I just adore this spice, its one of my favourite and i love it in coffee, sweets and chai of course.
Health benefits:

Its used to treat infections in teeth and gums, to prevent and treat throat troubles, congestion of the lungs and pulmonary tuberculosis, inflammation of eyelids and also digestive disorders. It also is used to break up kidney stones and gall stones, and was reportedly used as an antidote for both snake and scorpion venom.

Ginger
I normally use this one i main dishes, in the beginning i didnt like dthe taste, but i got used 2 it and now i like it :)
health benefits:
Ginger has been found effective in multiple studies for treating nausea caused by seasickness, morning sickness and chemotherapy.
And Ginger may have blood thinning and cholesterol lowering properties that may make it useful for treating heart disease.
In Arabic, ginger is called zanjabil and in some parts of the Middle East ginger powder is used as a spice for coffee ( not in my coffee though).

Mood: tired n craving for some sleep

My first driving lesson

2010-03-26T23:33:00.000+02:00

2day i had my very first driving lesson (with 22 years *shame*)
Actually my husband teached me and i wasnt that bad at all :)
I think i did pretty well cause i needed only about 15 min 2 learn how 2 start the car and how 2 drive in the 2nd and 3rd gear.
It was kinda scary though cause it was after maghrib so it was dark, but alhamdulillah the place we were at was empty and there was only 1 more car which was a young guy learning 2 drive by his father, and he did better than me :S (I keep telling myself it wasnt his first time!)
I didnt thought i would handle driving so well, but yeah it was just driving on a safe place, am still scared from the street with all those crazy egyptian driver.
Inshallah i can learn soon 2 park and 2 drive on the street so i can use the car when my husband is at work and i can go shopping on my own *yeah*

2 all of u Jummah mubarak :)

Being pregnant

2010-03-25T23:45:00.000+02:00

Iam now pregnant 28 weeks and its getting really annoying :)
Not that i dont love my baby and iam happy 2 have him but the side effects are really making me tired.
Recently my stomach got so big, its scary :S
I just avoid watching myself in the mirror as i see myself just looking fat n not atractive at all.
Im dreaming about the time when i can again do sports
go running
go skating
go riding
walk a long time without breathing hard :)
sleep as i like without someone kicking me if he doesnt like the position :)
when i dont have this cravings anymore ( sugar,sugar,sugar..i want it all the time)

I simple miss 2 see myself as a woman and to wear nice clothes.
When i see those lovly clthes i was able 2 wear be4 the pregnancy i could cry :S
But inshallah i will work hard after it 2 get into them again.
And i cant wait 2 hold my baby in my arms :)

2 all the mothers out there: How much weigth did u gain in pregnancy?

writing a book

2010-03-23T02:57:00.000+02:00

So i finally started 2 write, but seriously iam not sure if iam good enough in writing 2 make a book. So id like 2 to tell me what u think of these first writings of me.
Do u think its good enough 2 write a whole book or not? Plzz be honest :)

"Alva, Alva are you dreaming or what? i called u many times from downstairs!"
Slowly the young swedish woman turn her face away from the window where she was
watching the snowflakes fall down and cover the earth in white.
A sadness is written on her face while she answers her mother, who is standing in her rooms door and waiting
for an answer.
" I was thinking of my future" Alva confesses to her mother.
" U know i support u, whatever u decide to do, but now please come and help me to
pack some more things in the living room"
Without a word Alva follows her mother to the living room abd starts helping her mother
to pack their belongings for the moving the will do soon.
While shes puting candles, frames and other decoration in the
box, she still thinks of what future hold for her. Just 1 week ago she finished her studys and stillshe couldnt decide what to do now.
The only thing Alva knows is that she wants to live some adventures before
she enters the world of responsebilitys, paying bills, working 6 days a week,
cleaning her own flat, maybe getting married, this all will be her Life some day and she doesnt dislike it but still there is this thought in her head.
Just for some months Alva wants to leave sweden 2 see others places and enjoy herself
before all this will keep her away from being free.
But where should she go? A young woman from only 21 years who has never left her country
and who has just finished her studys in architecture. The language of course wouldnt be a
problem for her as she speaks english perfectly and she also learned italian.
But where should she go and what should she do?
Alva thinks of this since months and also find some opportunitys but still
none of them felt right to her til now.
There were the offer from a tourism company to work as an animatour in spain, but Alva soon realised it
would a hard job from 12 hours per day and thats not what she wanted.
She doesnt look for anything where she will work all day and cant use any time in the way she
wants to. Instead she wants to get to know the place she would stay at and meet new people,
not only at work. Another offer Alva refused was to work in Austria in tourism as an swedish speaking tour guide.
This offer sounded much better and even the paying would have been higher but Alva
just couldnt see it as a good opportunity as it would be cold there just like in sweden and she
wants 2 see a different way of living.

As Alva is dreaming about places where she want to go she finds some old photo albums
in the closet.
She used 2 watch pictures with her mother before when she was younger, but this album s somehing
she dont remember. It looks completly different 2 the normal albums where her mother kept
all her baby and childhood pictures.
Its nice decorated with a strange kind of writing which Alva cant identify, but than she recalls
that it must be arabic writtign like the one she had seen in her friends home.
It looks beautifull 2 her, but still she wonders what this is doing here?
Sure its not her mothers album, maybe her mother borrowed it and forgot 2 gave it back.
First Alva decides not 2 watch it as she thinks its not abou her, but her curiousity wins and Alva takes it
2 her room where she plans 2 check it later when she finsihed helping her mother.
2 hide it from her mother she uses an excuse that she wanna call a friend and will be right back.
Two hours later when she and her mother finaly finished the packing all the small things in the living room.
Alva goes back 2 her room where she finds the album again which she almost forget while
talkign 2 her mother about all the memorys they had in this flat that they are
going 2 leave after so many years.
Slowly she opens the album and gets very surprised as reading whats written on the first site.
Theres standing her name, birthday, her mothers name and than the name of her father.
Alva never got 2 know her father as he left the family when she was 2 years. She didnt even got
any pictures of him or his name, for long time she was so mad at her mother about this,
but as she realised it hurts her mother, she stopped talking about it.
And now, here, after all these years is the name of her father, simply written in this
album just underneath her own Name.
But for her great surprise it isnt an swedish name, nor an european name. Its an arabic name
It says Fahd ibn Saud, a name that Alva had never heard before and that
sounds pretty strange to her.
She didnt really had contact to arabs before, in fact the only arab she knows is her
study coleague Alia who invited Alva 2 her home bofore and also introduced her 2 islam.
Alva liked the idea of islam as she believes in God but didnt liked christianity for several reasons.
But she had been 2 busy with studys 2 get 2 know more about islam but she had given Alia the promise
2 visit her again and go2 a mosque with her.
Now that Alva found out that her father is she decides 2 call Alia right away and make an
appointment as soon as possible, maybe she can help her 2 learn some more
about her fathers culture.
But first she has 2 speak with her mother 2 know about him.
After Alia watched the pictures she feels excited about the new informations she got
and happy that she finally knows where she comes from.
Her father looks handsome with his black hair and long eyelashes "just like an arabian prince" Alva thinks
She takes a deep breath before she enters the empty living room where her mother sits on the couch
and watches the news in tv.

She smiles as she sees Alva walking in, but her smile dissappears when she
gets sight of what Alva carrys with her.
the secret that she kept for all these years. how could Alva get this album?
"Where do u got this from"? she asks nervously, hoping that Alva havent opend it and discovered
the truth.
"i found it here in the living room,but that doesnt matter. Why did u never show me this?"
I want some answers now which u didnt give me before but i need to know mama."

The sad look in Alvas eyes hurt her mother deeply as she knows its her fault that
her only child is in pain about not knowing about her father all her life.
But how could she have told her when she wanted 2 forget him forever?
"Ok Alva i will give u the answers u longing for so much but dont hate me for
not telling u before. U have 2 know hat it hurts me so mcuh to talk about him.
He was my first and only real love. I loved him so much, hat only my liove for
u is bigger, but we couldnt stay 2gether so i decided its better to forget him. Plus the fact that
u anyway wouldnt have been able 2 se him regulary as he lives far away from us"
Alvas mother takes a deep breath, looking at her daughter while she prepares for
her daughters questions.
" Well first i wanna know where is he from and how did u meet him"?

" I meet him in the university i was studying at and we directly fall in love when we saw each other for
the first time. I just knew hes the right one for me, even i knew hes not swedish
and people warned me from arabic guys. But he proved he was different and i trusted him.
He is from the United arabic emirates and he came here as a young man 2 study english.
Some months after we met we moved 2gether and got married in the islamic way as he was
a muslim and he said he couldnt be with me without being married in his belief.
I accepted this and so we got married at the mosque in the city centre. U know the big mosque
with the big blue windows? Thats where the marriage took place and it was nice even the people
there didnt liked the idea of a muslim marrying a christian like me.
But we did it and we were happy, and even happier when i got pregnant with u.
Fahd was so loving and caring as i never have seen it on an swedish man before, he
just did everything 2 make me happy. But we lived only in the here an dnow, we didnt tjought of the future.
And as the end of his studys came near he started 2 ask me 2 come with him 2 dubai, to live there.
But i couldnt do that, i couldnt imagibe 2 live far away from my family in a country
where everything is so different. But Fahd couldnt stay here,his family expected him 2 cme back and
take care of the family buisness.
So he told me 2 come with hm or he had 2 leave. It was
the hardest decision of my Life but i decided 2 stay here with u and raise u alone.
Maybe it was a mistake but at at that time i couldnt make another decision, even it ripped
my heart in two. When he left we knew it would never work out 2 have such a long distance realtionship,
so itryd 2 keep myself busy with u and forget him.
U must know hes not a bad person, he always sended letters 2 ask for u and he alsways sends money every month 4 u.
He didnt liked that i kept him a secret from u, but he accepted it as he knew how much i was hurt from him.
But we made the agreement that whenever i tell u about him, and u want contact 2 him, that i will make and
accept that contact in any way" Ulla ends her story with tears in her eyes.
fear of loosing her daughter overwhelms her now.
But Alva reaches over 2 her and hugs her.
" Im so glad 2 know the truth now, even its far from whatever i imagined, but abot the contact 2 him, i will need
a bit time 2 think about it, iam just 2 confused now 2 decide anything"
" Thats a good decision Alva, just take ur time, nothing runs away fromn u"

Fire... :S

2010-03-18T00:09:00.000+02:00

I wanted 2 post some more on egypt but im not really in the mood right now.
Just some min ago i was sitting withmy husband on the bed when we both smelled something burning. My hubsnad was even saying it might be a bruning machine somewhere.
But when i watched out of the window i could see what it was..
Right next 2 us is a free place where someone started 2 build a house but obviously run out of money so he let the place as it is.
I could already see the fire over he wall ( and the wall is 2 metre high!)
My husband ran outside right away and informed our landlord ( who is living above us).
Alhamdulillah they could stop the fire 2gether with some neighbours.
But it really scared me like hell :S
What if we slept at the time? The fire could have taken over very soon and harm us ( or even kill us, audhubillahi mina shaytan nirageem)

I believe that Allah wanted 2 show us that we can die any time, no one is secure of this!
Only 2 months ago there was a fire in the house of my in laws and i dont get what it is that we have so much 2 do with fire these days?
I mean in all my life i never had anything 2 do with this kinda fire. I didnt even saw a big fire in my Life.
And now in 2 months im in contact with it 2 times. Should i worry now? :S

Ya Rab protect us all from the bad things and give us the chance 2 be better muslims before we die!

Some pics 2 the post

2010-03-16T21:04:00.000+02:00

Before i go i decided 2 post some pics of masr, i hope u enjoy it :)

Some thoughts on Egypt - Part 1

2010-03-16T20:46:00.000+02:00

Since most people who read my Blog arent egyptians, i thought u might be intrested in the real Egypt :)
I realised fast that living in Egypt shows u different sides of egypt than if u only visit it. Same for the case if ur a muslim or not, its just a big difference.

When i first came here in september 2008 i directly had 2 be very independent and find out things by myself. Fortunatly people didnt always recognize am not egyptian as i dress just like them and as long as i dont speak they mostly think iam egyptian and so they treat me like that.

One thing i found out very very fast is that woman arent supposed 2 be outside at night alone. Now i dont mean a time like 2 am cause that wouldnt be so good elsewhere 2 ( though it wouldnt be so dangerous).
But its better not 2 go out without a male after about 10pm. After 12am its really getting strange if u are out without a male and believe me u wont feel so comfortable.
There are some places where this rules are not working like in citystars ( a big mall in nasr city).
But in generell i would advice u 2 avoid going out after 10pm alone.
I dared 2 go stay out until 12 am one night in alexandria cause i was waiting for a friend of me and this friend just came late bcz of transportation. And i felt like all males watching me very strange. Alhamdulillah iam a muslim and i was wearing hijab and abaya and iam sure this kept the guys from harassing me.
Its the culture here that a woman that hangs out on the street alone at that time cant be a good one, bcz the good girls stay home with their familys or go out with their husbands. So if u are out alone its shows u r not protected and maybe u even looking 2 meet guys..

Another thing that doesnt really exist in europe ( at least in germany) are cafes only for males. Mostly they are really simple shops where they just serve coffee and tea (and shisha of course).They are never fancy shops with nice decoration and special drinks, its just a simple place where the man meet and drink tea together.
If u as a woman go and sit there they will watch u in a strange way :)
I know it bcz i did it out of not knowing. But actually i wasnt alone, my arabic teacher took me there and later he told me that this cafe normally is just 4 males and that we gonna study in another cafe next time ( he was just 20 and obviously hadnt experience about cafes).
Now since i married i realise it more than before how much egyptians care for this.
Like if we go 2 a cafe and there are sitting only males, than my husband insists 2 go 2 another cafe. Not if its a cafe like cilentro, beanos or any cafe like that.
But im talking about the local ones, where u pay 2 pund for a tea and u mostly sit outside on wooden chairs :)
So if u plan 2 go out with girls only choose a cafe where already girls are sitting and better avoid 2 much empty cafes cause it might be a really bad one.

Ill think of more later as iam going 2 drink qahwa with my husband now :)

i just bought

2010-03-15T17:34:00.000+02:00

I was frustrated so when my husband left 4 work 2day ( weve been arguing), so i decided 2 go 2 the shop near our house.
Its just 2 min walk 2 there alhamdulillah
It a really small shop with some baby clothes, housewear, and a little bit of normal clothes for outside ( shirts,..)
I already knew what i wanna buy be4 i went there :D
I saw it the last time and we didnt bought it bcz its for baby from 6 - 9 months,
so its a bit big.
But its so cute and cheap that i decided 2 buy it 2day.
I payd 24 pound which is about 3,5 euro i think. Thats really cheap, in germany i would have payd at least 10 - 15 euro for it bcz its new and from disney :)

I made ticker for this Blog 2, about my pregnancy cause i tend 2 4get which week iam in *shame* the ticker is in the sidebar 2 but 2 make it easier, here it is =

And this is the pic of my shopping result 2day :)

How many oranges u need for 1 l. Juice?

2010-03-14T20:40:00.000+02:00

Guess how many oranges u need 2 get 1 litre of orange juice?

I know the answer :P
U need about 11 oranges

How do i know?
I tryd it out yesterday

Why do i tell u this?
Dont know really, am just bored :P

Ps: if u have 2 much fresh orange juice left, just put it in the freezer for some time and u get a nice frozen sorbet :)

my favs

2010-03-14T19:58:00.000+02:00

I took this idea from Texan in UAE i hope she doesnt mind :)
( this is the link 2 her nice Blog http://texaninuae.blogspot.com/ )

My favorite flowers: Lilys ( Calla)

My favorite perfume: Arrimage de hendvenche ( no pics available)
and parfume with yasmin

My favorite hot drink: anything with milk :D Milkshakes, hot chocolate, Nescafe

My favourite Animal: Norwegian Forest cats ( and Orcas)

My favourite Food: Pizza ( unhealthy but sooo tasty)

My favourite Clothes: Evening dress ( i wish i had more chances 2 wear these kinda dresses :S

My favourite Sport: Inline skating ( and yoga, Running)

Favourite Persons in this World: Mama, Husband and the little One :D

Am feeling sick :S

2010-03-12T21:30:00.001+02:00

I guess i ate something wrong last night
I cant say what it was since i ate a lot of different things :)
But i guess it was the milk-rice which my mother in law brought with her ( from a shop)
Since the morning i feel pain in my stomach and i just wanna sleep.
It doesnt made it better that i didnt get sleep all night. We just stayed up til about 7am and after it when we tryd 2 sleep a annoying fly woke me up every 5 min.
So im kinda exhausted and feel sick
Which really sucks as its friday and i waited all week 4 this day since my husband promised we will go 2 a big mall
I desperatyly need some clothes 2 wear at home since my stomach just got bigger and my old clothes dont fit anymore :(

I cant believe am now pregnanct since about 27 weeks.
Its not 2 much time left til the baby will be born and i dont really feel ready.
There are still things we need 2 buy. BUt 2 be honest i cant wait that my body is mine again.I feel absolutly unatractive and i feel like a old woman when i move slowly out of the bed..

Alahmdulillah 4 everything

Au pair time in Uk

2010-03-07T17:38:00.000+02:00

From April 2009 i was working as an Au pair in Uk
I worked there for about 1,5 Months only even though i was supposed 2 stay longer
It was one of the worst experiences of my Life and iam happy iam over with this.
But i cant deny im not really done with it bcz from time 2 time i remember it and it makes me feel bad.

When i got the news that i could work in Uk i was so happy. It gave me the opportunity 2 earn money and 2 get experience with kids.
I was working 4 a family with a christian mother and an maroccan muslim father.
The 2 kids were Malik ( 3) and Aalia ( 9) and Aalia was happy 2 have a muslim Au/pair as she was intrested 2 learn about Islam.

It didnt went as i was hoping 4..
The mother was a terrible person, like a stepmother in any fairytale!
She gave me the orders what i have 2 do, which was alright with me cause that was after all my duty. The things i had 2 do were a lot but it was ok.
I had to bring the kids 2 school, than clean and make food 4 the kids.
Clean the flat.
Than take Malik home play with him.
Go and take Aalia home and than give them food and make homework with Aalia.
Than play with them until the parents come home.
Extra dutys were bathing the kids once a week and cook dinner twice a week

Well i did all this and i did my best though the kids were really spoiled and didnt listen 2 anyone.
Still the mother was never satisfied!
The food i was cooking was never good enough..not 2 mention that i was 21 and didnt had experience 2 cook for 5 people. How could she expect a perfect dinner?
I did my best and my food isnt that worse. Thats not what i say, but i cooked 4 several people and all of them like dmy food.

The flat was never clean enough. Though i vacuumed 2 times a day in the morning and at night before she came home. I cleaned the kitchen, the bathroom and the kids rooms.
I washed the clothes of all of them, ironed the kids clothes and put her and her husbands clothes in their room.
I cleaned the windows, the stairs..
I think thats all u can ask 4 in an au pair..

Every little mistake i made was 2 much
If Aalia didnt do the housework on friday night she would scream at me!
Though i just allowed Aalia 2 do it the next day..

In the end i used the pc 2 look 4 other babysitter jobs at weekend cause i didnt liked 2 be there all weekedn and for au pair jobs after this time.
Well obviously she was always checking the sites i was visiting.
So she came 2 me and screamed at me like a crazy..
She blamed me that i was looking 4 another job without telling her ( i didnt i swear but even if i did, its my right isnt it???)
So it ended up in drama..
I was crying as i could take it anymore emotionally
Her husband was talking 2 her that this happend everytime that they take a au pair, and that she cant treat human like this always.
The kids came 2 my room and tryd 2 make me feel better..Aalia even told me that shes used 2 this, as the aupairs always end up crying and leaving
( the last aupair just left them bcz of the bad treatment)

I didnt left right away, as written in my contract i stayed about 1 month so they could find another aupair. This month was hell..
U can imagine how bad it is 2 live with a furious woman who just wanna make ur life hell..

When i left they didnt even brought me 2 the airport!
They let me go there by train
I had 2 carry 2 heavy bags whihc i could nearly not handle, changing the train 3 times til i reached the airport after 3 hours..

After this experience i really needed time 2 get over it and 2 get this bad feeling away from me again..

I just wish they will never get an aupair again
But thats useless 2 wish as they got an aupair right after me which left after 1 month again.. ( i know it from facebook..)
Im sorry 4 the kids that they have a mother like this and that their father is 2 weak 2 do anything for them..

This is them btw and also were i found them

http://www.greataupair.com/fastfind.cfm/locatorID/1058585/page/1/pagelist/1/search/Family/searchType/Advanced/countryList/0/keywords/Malik/displayRows/5/salaryExpectation/1

Not 2 mention that they lie there!
U cant use the Wii when u want cause they watch tv when they are home and when theyr r not home u take care of the kids..
- 28" widescreen TV/DVD, satallite is a lie 2! In the very small room is a tv with about 2 channels..the big tv with satelite is downstairs and u cant use it when they r home!!!
- free unlimited access to the Internet and free limited international calls to home
Unlimited calls means 30 min a day and just in europe! unlimited free internet acces? Well when u use internet when the kids r there? or when the kids sleep? The pc is in the kids room so u cant use it when the kids r there or when u have 2 take care of them..

Shereen Enkatably 3omr

2010-03-07T13:08:00.000+02:00

Im in love with this song since i saw it on Rotana in Tv
Though i didnt understood the words, i think its one of those songs where u can feel the meaning without knowing the words :)
Anyhow i googled the meaning of the song and i didnt found much but at least a bit, and that bit is really romantic

انكتبلى عمر
It was destined for me to have a lifetime

انا انكتبلى عمر وانت بين ايديا
It was destined for me to have a lifetime with you
وحجات كتير كانت بعيده عليا
And many things that was far from me
لاقتها فيك
I found them in you
وانا بين ايديك كل اللى ضاع لاقيته تانى
When I'm between your hands , I found everything I lost again
وهربت ليك من كل حاجه مخوفانى
& I ran to you from anything that scares me
وجريت عليك
& I ran to you

ايامى جبنك عشتها وحياتى بيك كملتها
I lived my days by your side , & I completed my life with you
انا كنت قبلك واحده ناسيه نفسها
Before you , I was someone forgetting herself
قدام عينك انا صعب الاقى كلام اقوله
Infront of your eyes , it's hard for me to find words to say
ده كل حلم زمان كا نفسى اطوله
Every dream I had before & which I wanted to remain so long
انا شفته فيك
I saw it in you

ازاى اعيش الدنيا لو مكنتش فيها
How would I live in this world if you were not there?
كلمه حبيبى مش هنادى لحد بيها
I'll never call anyone "baby"
غير بس ليك
Except you

A Recipe

2010-03-07T01:16:00.000+02:00

I did this 2day since i felt bored from always the same pasta sauce.
Jami Oliver kinda inspired me when i watched his great escape 2day on Fatafeat :)
It was really intresting and made me just wanna cook italian food right away.
If u try it, tell me what u think of it

Spaghetti with Broccoli-crema-tomato sauce

150 - 200 gr spaghetti ( uncooked)
half onion ( small one)
1 garlic clove
2 tomatoes
3 tablesppons cream
salt n pepper
half teaspoon oregano
1 tablespoon lemonjuice ( preferably fresh)
50 gr broccoli ( frozen)

1. cook the pasta in saltwater for about 7 min, than drain them

2. cut the onion into small pieces. Cute the garlic clove into small pieces.
Heat a bit oil in a frying pan than put the onion and garlic into it.
Let it fry for about 1 or 2 min

3. Meanwhile cut the tomatoes into small pieces ( the smaller the better) and add it into the pan. Fry for about 3 min. Until it gets the texture of a sauce.
Add about half teaspoon of oregano 2 it.

4. Cut the broccoli into palatable pieces ( not 2 big or 2 small)
Than add it in the frying pan. Add also 3 Tablespoons of cream and let it all simmer until the broccoli is tender.

5. Now the lemon juice ( 1 teaspoon) and salt and pepper.

Mix the spaghetti with the sauce and serve it hot

How 2 win the heart of ur husband

2010-03-05T02:26:00.000+02:00

I heard a lesson about this topic and found it very intresting
Though i dont agree 2 all points, i think it can be very helpfull
And its a good reminder of things that most woman know anyway

1. Make ur house a place he likes 2 be at
That means it should be clean when he comes home and it should smell good.

2. Smile when he comes home and welcome him, tell him that u missed him
It will make him feel good 2 be back home
Offer him something 2 drink and give him time 2 get down after the work before u start 2 talk about ur problems..which leeds to point 3

3. Wait 4 the right moment 2 talk about problems
Dont do it when hes doing something and u know he dont wanna be disturbed
( might be a football game or anything else)
Try 2 be calm, also when u think its his fault and discuss it with him in a good way

4. Dont talk bad about his family
Even when hes mad at them, he will stil not accept that u say anything bad about them.
Even if its true what u say, its better not 2 say it.
Just try 2 ignore these kinda things and try 2 not talk about themat all if u dont like them.

5. Practise ur religion
He will appreciate if his wife is intrested in practising her religion and it will help him 2 do the same. Like when its prayer time, ask him kindly 2 come 2 pray.
Remind him in a good way, when he does smething which isnt really islamic ( like swearing) He will respect u 4 it, if hes a true muslim

6. Do the things he likes
If he likes a certain dish, do it regulary 4 him.
If he likes a certain parfum, wear it 4 him.
Make ur hair the way he likes it the most.
That doesnt mean its always about him, but if u try 2 do the things he likes and avoid the things he dislikes he will propably do the same and he will love u more 4 it..Sometimes males are so easy 2 please just by making the cake he loves or wearing the dress he likes so much on u

7. Try 2 obey him
I know this is a hard one, and i struggle 2 do it.
Like if he asks u 2 make tea, or 2 bring him something.
Just do it, its not such a big thing and Allah asked us 2 obey our husbands.
It doesnt mean 2 obey in anyhting against islam cause hats haram. But if he asks u 4 something ( like plz put my moble 2 charge) do it 4 him without asking why and acting as if its a big burden. After some time he will appreciate it 4 sure.
And it will make him look at u in a different way cause it shows him that u love him and dont mind 2 do small ( or bigger( things 4 him.

8. Do him small favours without him asking.
Like bring him tea when hes watching tv or bring him some fruit that u cut 4 him.
It just shows ur love 2wards him and u will get a big reward from Alah for dong more than ur duty 2wards ur husband.
And dont u love it when ur husband does those things 4 u? Like when he brings u the chocolate u like without u even asking him 4 it. Its just a nice thing 2 do, 4 muslims and non muslims.

There r so much more things, but this is what i remember and what i think about this topic.
Iam trying 2 keep the points as good as i can, but its tough sometimes. Especially when u r unhappy with ur life bcz than its hard 2 make someone else happy.
But iam trying, not only 4 my husbands sake, but also 4 the reward ill get from Allah.
May Allah bless all married couples and make it easy 4 them. Ameen

I Love Apples

2010-03-03T23:46:00.000+02:00

I just love them
Especially since iam pregnant, i could eat them all the time
I adore the dark red ones so much
Alhamdulillah iam able 2 eat them often nowadays as i make my husband bring them a lot :)
Thats how they have 2 look like 4 me

some quotes i love

2010-03-01T18:00:00.000+02:00

Iam tired of everything and i just pray Allah may ease our situation.Ameen

Time can change in every breath we take

You can't help who you love, you're not supposed to

If you are willing to trust in a person when all others tell you to
go against it, if you are willing to risk getting your heart broken
because you believe in that other person, Then that is true love

Speak less to people whom u love most…..
Because if they cant understand ur silence…..
They can never understand your words….

“You don’t need to do anything.”

Inside her head she added, Except love me.

Inside her head he replied, I do love you.

Inside her head she said, But not enough.

chitra banerjee divakaruni

No guy is worth your tears & when you find one that is,
he won't make you cry.

No man is truly married until he understands
every word his wife is NOT saying

1 step 2 get back 2 myself :)

2010-02-21T16:42:00.000+02:00

U might think now iam crazy :)
I just went alone 2 the shop, its the first time i go out alone since we live here in Obour. The place we live in isnt actually the safest of places. So my husband dont like when i go out alone. But i got the permission 2 go 2 the shops close 2 the house alone now. Alhamdulillah we finally got a 2nd key so that i have my own key without sharing it with my husband anymore.
Sounds crazy even 2 myself that i was a bit scared 2 go out :)
But i lived alone in Alex for about 4 months and i know i can be indpendent if i have 2. But u know how it is, u get used 2 things fast. So i got used 2 only go out with my husband. But inshallah i will try 2 go out alone regulary 2 fet used 2 it again.
Sadly here is no metro so i dont get far but my goal is 2 be able 2 get 2 the mall alone and 2 get back of course.
Its a bit away and the transportation here sucks.
Plus i dont know our exact adress 9 neither does my husband) so it be kinda hard 2 tell the tuck tuck driver where 2 bring me :S
But im gonna solve this out, bcz i need 2 be able 2 go and buy clothes without my husband, otherwise i will not be able 2 buy presents 4 him ever :S

U can officily call me crazy now :P

home alone... at night

2010-02-21T01:29:00.000+02:00

4 another reason caused by muy lovly inlaws...
I wonder how a normal family life looks like, bcz as it seems ill never have it.
2 nights ago his mother called about every hour from 2am until 5am just bcz she felt bad as her husband has left 2 go 2 his other wife ( its his right...)
This morning i woke up from my husbands yelling, as he was arguing with his parents that they have 2 do something about their other sons condition who needs 2 go 2 hospital.
Well as they couldnt handle it ( not a surprise 2 me!) my husband now had 2 go there at 1am 2 find a pharmacy 2 bring medication 2 his brother.
Our place is kinda far away from them and i dont get it how parents cant be able just 2 go 2 a pharmacy and get the medication..

Anyone wanna exchange familys in law?

Turkish coffee

2010-02-20T01:22:00.000+02:00

I have been writin a long post about me being home again and stuff like that but thanks 2 my connection it got deleted :S And am 2 lazy 2 write the same again
So am back hoome since some days and happy 2 be here :)

Since am home again i got my obsession 2 turkish coffee again.
I loved it be4 when i was in alex last year but since i couldnt do it well in germany due to no gas cooker, i stopped drinking it and exchanged it 4 coffee with milk.
But i talked with my brother in law about turkish coffee and since than im loning 4 some, so when i came back home i just made some and it worked out. Even i didnt have the right pot 4 it ( the Canaka) but it still turned out good alhamdulillah.( Here u can see how 2 make it, its really worth it http://www.turkishcoffeeworld.org/2008/04/daily-caffeine-protects-brain-easy-way.html )
I could drink this stuff all the time and listen the emirati/saudian music 2 it :)

My husband hates this kinda music am listening in tv. Its mostly singers from saudia, emirates, kuwait or oman and they sing in a very different arabic. But i love this old fashioned ways and the music itself. Its much more like the real arabic than the new egyptian songs which are quite modern.
My husband loves the old egyptian songs like the ones from um kalthoum with real orchestras and alll this stuff. He claims that he likes it only since we married, but truly i dont think so :P
His family stayed in saudia a long time and his brothers who are born there undertsand and like the saudian music more than him. Especially one of them loves the same music like i do.
I think i need 2 sit with him and let him tell me what the songs mean as my husband cant translate them.

I have 2 add that i like Tamer hosny ( everyone else around me hates him :S)
and i like Haifas songs ( though i hate her personally)
i do like nancy ajram and elissa 2

The kid in this video is just adorable, i love his voice
But i wonder, does haifa really sleep in this dress ??? :P

i wanna go, i wanna go, i wanna go...

2010-02-15T20:21:00.001+02:00

Am so frustrated right now and i just wanna leave and go back home.
2 my recent flat, where all my clothes and all other things are at.
I anyway wanna go home but the reason that makes me more annoyed and wanna go home RIGHT NOW, is again the wife of my brother in law...
If u dont like someone than why this persons cant leave u alone?
I mean its pretty obvious that i dont really like her, as i dont ever go upstairs all by myself or ask her 2 spend time even she just lives inthe flat above us now.
And iam not acting lke we are best friends, am just being polite and nice when she talks 2 me.
But really id prefer some distance. I dont mind 4 sure 2 talk 2 her on family meetings or 2 see her when our husbands wants us 2 go out 2gther. But i dont need 2 be alone with her in any way as i just dont feel comfortable with it.

Just 30 min ago she came down again as she obviously feels boring alone upstairs.
So she took her son ( 2years old) and came down and aske dme 2 come up.
I said no but as usual she kept insisting until she suggested 2 stay in this room with me.
I couldnt say no so i said ok if u want 2..
I was just watching a german movie and so she watched it with me though she cant understand german or even english..
The trys 2 have conversation failed as her english is really bad and she just use 1 word 4 anything. Like if she wanna say ur face look sad, whats wrong? She will say ur face? ur face?

After some time she went back up telling me i have 2 come when the movie finish!
And that she will be so sad if i dont come up.
When i told her i wait 4 my husband ( who actually closed his mobile all day long grrrr) she said doesnt matter he will think u r up when u r not here...
Well i dont like 2 not be here when he comes home.Its after all my duty as wife 2 be here and make his food warm ( i cooked it be4)..

In anyway iam so annoyed that nothing going good right now
-My husband was supposed 2 come early 2 so we can take off n go home - he didnt
-he closed his mobile all day long - just 2 open it 5 min ago n telling me he be here in 45 min ( icalled him)
- my husband lost the door key so i cant even go up and be sure thagti can come back inside as the door might get closed..
- we dont really have much 2 eat here now - just what he will eat 4 dinner and bread..
- i cant take a shower as there is no hot water ( since 1 week)

i wish 2morrow be a better day and that ill finally be home as iam going crazy in here :S

al masjid

2010-02-14T19:41:00.000+02:00

2day i went with one of my brothers in law 2 the club.
Not the disco 4 sure but that kinda club where u can do any kind of sports, go playing with ur kids or go 2 the library and so on. There r evena lot of cafes in there and some small other shops.
Anyway i went with him bcz he needed some help in german from me and inshallah i could help him.
While we were there it was praying time so i had the chance 2 pray in the mosque there :)
I always love 2 pray in the mosque bcz it gives such a nice feeling.
I prayed aasr there first. But since i was a little late 4 prayer i was nearly alone in the prayer room. I took that chance 2 make pictures :)

The next prayer, the maghrib prayer, i attended at the right time and i was able 2 pray with a lot of woman there, mashallah :)
It feels nice 2 see all this woman doing the same as u, just praying 2 the One.
Inshallah i can go 2 the mosque more often when am back home as i have a offer 2 go 2 lessons with 1 woman. It will be quranic arabic lessons in 1 mosque there :)
She doesnt speak english a lot but her daughter does, so inshallah she will come and join us :)

Egypt is getting hot

2010-02-14T14:27:00.000+02:00

Since 2 or 3 days the temperature here is going up
Its like a hot german summer :D
Suddenly it turned from maybe 20 grad at daytime to 30
I wanted it 2 be a bit warmer bcz i was freezing 2 much but now its so warm i wish i could wear a shirt and miniskirt at home ( cant bcz we still with brothers in law)
Last year at this time it wasnt like this at all.
i was in Alex last year and it was raining and soo cold. I remember how i wear training suit, abaya and a jacket when i went outside in the evening.
And now, 1 year later in cairo its the total opposite.
Is this the global warming?

I already scare the summer here when it starts like this just in february, how it gonna be in june or july?
And ill have still a baby belly in june, i think that will be suffering time 4 me :S
Inshallah it wont get 2 hot, so that i have 2 stay home all day near the air conditioner

stop insisting

2010-02-13T19:20:00.001+02:00

I dont like it at all whenpeople keep insisting afte u already said NO!
Like someone asked me 2 go 2 out ( a female)
me: no thx i dont wanna go there
SHe: why not?
me: I donrt like it
She:come on come with me there
me: No thx
she: why?
me: bcz i dont want 2 go there
she: yalla come wth me
me: No i dont wanna go there..

this going on n on..
Im actually pretty simple 2 understand bcz for me no is no and yes is yes.
I dont say no when i mean yes.

Like in araic countrys when someone offers u someting 2 drink or 2 eat and u say no they will keep on insisting which is their culture.
But that doesnt count inside the family ( the close family)
But still my sister in law keeps insisting even when i told her i dont like this food.
Like i dont eat meat except chicken and she still insists that i eat the red meat shes cooking!
When she didnt take something i gave 2 her (chocolate cake)...(and im not gonna comment bad on this)

I guess its showing that i dont like her, but i cant help it.
She just talks about me with others all the time and shes always showing off which i hate.
And the worst 4 me is that my husband is on her side and not on mine :S
He doesnt see that shes showing off in a lot of things and that shes acting much more islamic when her father in law or he is there than 2 her other brothers in law.
I just dont like this kinda ppl and i cant wait 2 get away from here..

dresses

2010-02-08T19:18:00.000+02:00

Thats the shirts i bought yesterday :)
The pants ( looks like a skirt doenst it?) are new 2, alhamdulilah something that fits my growing belly :D

Whats new?

2010-02-08T13:02:00.001+02:00

Actually not much
The last days were not intresting at all as i havent been doing anything intresting.
i have been shopping yesterday where i bought a skirt andhttp://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=327482753170424487 a white long shirt for under 20 euro.. yay. Sadly i wont be able 2 wear the sirt 4 long as my stomach is growing but inshallah ill wear it after giving birth
I always spend time studying arabic which still gives me a hard time. I used 2 love 2 study vocabulary ( back in school) but nowadays it just bores me. Inshallah i will not give up and get better in arabic.

Ive also been reading a nice book called "Jane Eyre" fom Charlotte Brontë
The beginning of the book was kinda boring but later it got very intresting.
Its mostly about an orphan girl who is send 2 a charity school by her rich aunt bcz her aunt sees her as a low creature. After she spend 8 years there she became a teacher/ governess 4 another orphan girl whos living at a rich mans house.
After all Jane fall in love with that man and they are about 2 marry. But something bad gonna happen..
Am not gonna say more as u might want 2 read the book and i dont want 2 spoil it :)

After reading this book i once more wish 2 write a book myself.
I did start 2 do that be4 but my travel 2 uk just interrupted it and i gave up for i was 2 stressed and depressed there. Maybe ill post about my time in uk as its something i will never 4get and it still influence me.
In anyway ill try 2 write a book again isnahllah as i have enough free time these days, actually more than enough.
BUt i have so many ideas 4 it that i first need 2 sort out which of the directions 4 a book ill take.
Inshallah i will post about it when i started it.

The Prophet (peace be upon him) has said, "I and the guardian of orphans are like this." He raised his forefinger and middle finger to illustrate the closeness. (Bukhari & Muslim)

The rat in the AC

2010-02-02T19:17:00.000+02:00

Ac means Air conditioner btw :D
Iam not sure though that its in the AC only or also in the walls :S
Its really annoying bcz it makes npoise all night long unless we hit the AC, than its gone some time.
Now iam not scared of rats in generell since i know they r more scared of us than we are scared of them.
But the noise is just annoying ( even its not the only noise annoying me here)
Now how 2 get rid of this? Iam sorry 2 kill it but it might be the only solutions 2 get rid of it. Or ar there other solutions?

Anyway iam in the familys in law house now and sleeping here is a bit of a issue.
2 days be4 the phone rang in the morning and wake us up. After that we heard the rat and couldnt sleep. When my husband finally got the rat 2 leave, his father and brother started 2 argue so loud that we couldnt sleep again..so we got up :S
2day we went 2 sleep at about 4am after shoppig and cooking at night:)
And at 8.30am the wife of my rfother in law kept knocking the door bcz she wanted 2 talk 2 another brother in law...very annoying, as her husbad has 2 key 4 our door.
In anyway i have problems with her bcz she talked about me in some ways, but nevermind, sjhe got it back:P
When i wake up once the sleep after it isnt giving me good rest its just not same as sleeping 8 hours through a night.
I hope i can sleep more than 7 hours 2night without being interrupted so i can finally feel not tired anymore :)

Ive been tagged

2010-01-30T22:56:00.000+02:00

Ive been tagged by Cecilia from the Blog My Life Story
( http://myworldinme.blogspot.com/)

The challenge is to tell 7 things about yourself and then challenge 7 people and link to them and the one who challenged you.

7 things about me:

1.I learned arabic 1 year before in alexandria( Egypt). A friend of me helped me alot with the alphabet and the rest i learned from books. Unfortunatly i stopped and forgot a lot of what i knew and so now i have 2 re-new my knowldege

2. I dont like dogs. Well i dont hate them and i like puppys somehow. But in generell i feel strange when i touched grown-up dogs and i prefer them 2 stay a bit away from me. Though i dont fear them.

3. I love taking photos of everything but sadly i cant us them 4 anything :S
I just keep them ( the best of them) and watch them from time 2 time and think how wasted my talent is ;)

4. If i could decide this on my own i would adopt a child when iam older ( around 35 - 40) I always wanted 2 do so to give an orphan a home. But i know am not ready now and i also want 2 have own kids first 2. And im not sure if my husband will ever like this idea.

5. I hate 2 wear jeans. I know its not so islamic but thats not why i dont like it. I just dont like the feeling of jeans on my skin. Alhamdulillah for the comfortables skirts and abayas :)

6. Im obsessed with oaths in milk. I could eat this all day long but my husband wouldnt let me and i guess i would anyway need some more vitamins than this can give me.

7. Im not very social. Its difficult 2 me 2 start friendships. I always miss the ones i have been fiends for so long and who know me so well ( i stopped contact bcz he was male!) So by now am struggling 2 start some new friendships here so i will have a social life again and friends 2 go out with :)

I will challenge the following

* Jaz http://born-confuzed.blogspot.com
* AlabasterMuslim http://alabastermuslim.blogspot.com/
* firdous http://by-firdous.blogspot.com/
* Deppy http://depressedy.blogspot.com/
* Mama Muslimah Baby Muslimah http://ummjayjay.blogspot.com
* Minty'eema http://polygynyinsideout.blogspot.com/
* Sharshura http://sharshurathoughts.blogspot.com/

A great Love story

2010-01-26T20:54:00.001+02:00

A Love Story

Love Story of Zainab & Abul 'aas

It is the love story between Zainab bint Muhammad and Abo El’Ass ibn Rabee’; Zainab is the daughter of the Prophet (PBUH) and her cousin Abu El’Ass, is Khadeeja’s nephew. He was one of the nobles of Quraish, and the Prophet loved him.

One day Abu El’Ass went to the Prophet before he had received his mission of Prophet Hood and said: "I want to marry your eldest daughter". So the Prophet replied: "I must ask her first". He went to Zainab and asked her: "Your cousin came to me and he wishes to marry you, do you accept him as your husband?" Her face turned red with bashfulness and she smiled.

So Zainab married Abu El’Ass, the beginning of a great love story. They had two children; "'Ali" and "Omama".

Then a big problem occurred when Muhammad became a Prophet; he became a Prophet while Abu El’Ass was away from Makkah. Abu El’Ass returned to find his wife a Muslim. When he first came back, his wife said "I have great news for you". He stood up and left her. Zainab was surprised and followed him as she said, "My father became a Prophet and I have become a Muslim". He replied, "Why didn't you tell me first?" Hence a big problem began between the two; a problem of religion and belief.

She told him, “I wasn't going to disbelieve in my father and his message, he is not a liar, and he is “The Honest and Trustworthy”. I'm not the only believer; my mother and my sisters became Muslims, my cousin Ali ibn Abi Taleb became a Muslim, your cousin Othman ibn Affan became a Muslim, and your friend Abu Bakr became a Muslim".

He replied, "Well as for me, I don't want people to say ‘he let down his people and his forefathers to please his wife’. And I am not accusing your father of anything". Then he said, "So will you excuse me and understand?" She replied, "Who will excuse and understand you if I don't? But I will stay beside you and help you until you reach the truth" and she kept her word for 20 years.

Abu El’Ass remained an unbeliever, and then came the migration. Zainab went to the Prophet and asked him for the permission to stay with her husband, the Prophet replied, "Stay with your husband and children".

Compare this to the wives that refuse to travel with their husbands to their place of work and prefer to stay with their mothers.

So Zainab stayed in Makkah, until the battle of Badr occurred. Abu El’Ass was to fight in the army of Quraish against the Muslims. For Zainab, it meant that her husband will be fighting her father, a time Zainab had always feared. She kept crying out: “O Allah, I fear one day the sun may rise and my children become orphans or I lose my father”.

So the battle started, and ended in victory for the Muslims. Abu El’Ass was captured by the Muslims, and news of this reached Makkah. Zainab asked, "What did my father do?" They told her, "The Muslims won". So she prayed to Allah, thanking him. Then she asked: "What did my husband do?" they said: "He was captured" so she said" I'll send a payment to release him". She didn't own anything of much value, so she took off her mother's necklace, and sent it with Abu El’Ass's brother to the Prophet.

While the Prophet was sitting, taking payments and releasing captives, he saw Khadeeja’s necklace. He held it up and asked: "Whose payment is this?" They said: “Abu El’Ass ibn Rabee". He cried and said "This is Khadeeja's necklace". Then he stood up and said "People, this man is my in-law, should I release him? And do you accept the return of this necklace to my daughter?" They answered in unison "Yes, messenger of Allah".

The Prophet gave the necklace to Abu El’Ass and said to him: "Tell Zainab not to give away Khadeeja's necklace". Then he said “Abu El’Ass Can we speak privately?" He took him aside and said "Allah has ordered me to separate between a Muslim and a disbeliever, so could you return my daughter to me?" Abu El’Ass agreed.

Zainab stood on the gates of Makkah waiting for the arrival of Abu El’Ass. When he finally came he said, "I am going away". She asked, "Where to?" so he said, "It is not me who is going, it is you. You are going to your father; we must separate because you are a Muslim". She implored him, "Will you become a Muslim and come with me?" But he refused.

So Zainab took her son and daughter and traveled to Madinah, and for 6 years she refused to remarry, hoping that one day Abu El’Ass would come.

After 6 years, Abu El’Ass was traveling in a caravan from Makkah to Syria. During the journey, he was intercepted by some of the Prophet’s companions. He escaped and asked for Zainab’s home. He knocked on her door shortly before the dawn prayer. She opened the door and asked him “Did you become a Muslim?” He whispered “No, I come as a fugitive”. She implored him once more “Can you become a Muslim?” Again his answer was a negative. “Do not worry.” She said, “Welcome my cousin, welcome, the father of Ali and Omama”.

After the Prophet prayed the dawn prayer in congregation with the people, they heard a voice from the back of the mosque “I have freed Abu El’Ass ibn Rabee”.

Zainab had granted Abu El’Ass freedom. The Prophet asked "Have you heard what I heard?" They all said, "Yes, messenger of Allah". Zainab said, "He is my cousin and the father of my children and I have freed him” so the Prophet stood up and said, “O people, I declare that this man was a very good son-in-law, he never broke his promise, and neither did he tell lies. So if you accept I will return his money back and let him go and if you refuse it’s your decision and I will not blame you for it.” The companions agreed, “We will give him his money” so the Prophet said to Zainab" We have freed the one you have freed O Zainab" then he went to her and told her "be generous to him, he is your cousin and the father of your children, but don't let him get near you, he is prohibited for you.” She replied, "Sure, messenger of Allah, I'll do as you say".

She went in and told Abu El’Ass "O Abu El’Ass didn't you miss us at all? Will you be a Muslim and stay with us?" But he refused.

Abu El’Ass then took the money and returned to Makkah. Once he returned he stood up and announced, “O people here is your money, is there anything left?" they replied, "No Abu El’Ass there is nothing left, thanks a lot" so Abu El’Ass said, "I testify that there is no god but Allah, and Mohamed is His Messenger.” ?Then he went back to Madinah and ran to the Prophet as he said, “Dear Prophet, you freed me yesterday, and today I say that I testify there is no god but Allah and you are His messenger.” He asked the Prophet, "Will you give me the permission to go back to Zainab?" The Prophet smiled and said, "Come with me"; he took him to Zainab's house and knocked on her door. The Prophet said, "O Zainab, your cousin came to me and asked if he can return to you". Just like 20 years before, her face turned red with bashfulness and she smiled.

The strange thing is, a year after this incident, Zainab died. Abu El’Ass would cry so profusely that the people saw the Prophet himself weeping and calming him down. Abu El’Ass would say, “By Allah, I can’t stand life anymore without Zainab". He died one year after Zainab’s death.

Being grateful

2010-01-26T19:56:00.000+02:00

Am not sure if iam as grateful as iam supposed 2 be 4 all the things iam blessed with, subhanallah. But i feel bad seing a person who got so much things and isnt grateful just as she treats the things in a very bad way.
For example she has a lot of islamic book but they r under a deep layer of dust.
In any way they were under a lot of other useless things. I try 2 treat my books in a good way bcz i know that they r from allah n not everyone is blessed 2 get books like this. Like when i were living in germany it was hard 2 get good islamic books and so i treated them like treasures :)
Of course the same thing goes for anything allah bleses us with like clothes,household items or anything else. We should be thankfull and treat our things good and if we have something we dont need and dont appreciate, maybe we should give it away 2 someone who would appreciatie it.
Ill inshallah try my best 2 be more thankfull for what i have by remembering people who cant afford it even they wold want it.
Right now iam thankfull that i got the gift to know how 2 organize things and how 2 speak english :P
So what are u most grateful for?

'If man gets 72 wives in Jannah, then what do women get?'

2010-01-24T23:41:00.000+02:00

I found this in a discussion site and found it quite intresting as i alwys wondered what will the females get?
The answer though isnt so specified but after all better than nothing i guess.
Anyone have more information about what we will get?

'If man gets 72 wives in Jannah, then what do women get?'

While a man will get many Hurs in jannah, a women would be made the queen of Jannah. Her beauty will far outshine the beauty of the hurs.

Umme Salamah R.A narrates that she said to Rasûlullah SAW "O Rasûlullah, are the women of this world superior or the hûrs?" He replied, "The women of this world will have superiority over the hûrs just as the outer lining of a garment has superiority over the inner lining."

Umme Salamah R.A then asked, "O Rasûlullah, what is the reason for this?" He answered, "Because they performed salâh, fasted, and worshipped [Allah]. Allah will put light on their faces and silk on their bodies. [The human women] will be fair in complexion and will wear green clothing and yellow jewelry. Their incense-burners will be made of pearls and their combs will be of gold. They will say, 'We are the women who will stay forever and we will never die. We are the women who will always remain in comfort and we will never undergo difficulty. We are the women who will stay and we will never leave. Listen, we are happy women and we will never become sad. Glad tidings to those men for whom we are and who are for us.'" (Tabrânî)

Muhammed ibn Ka'b Al-Qurazi t narrates from a person of the Ansâr (people of Madînah) that Rasûlullah SAW said, "I take the oath of that Being who sent me with the truth, you are not more acquainted with your wives and houses than the people of Jannah. A person of Jannah will come to 72 wives which Allah specially created in Jannah (hûrs) and 2 human wives. The human wives will have virtue over the [hûrs] because they worshipped Allah in the world.'' (Targheeb Vol.4 Pg.534)

This will be the high position of the women of the world in Jannah.

If a women had more than one husband, she will choose which one of them to stay with, and she will choose the one with the best character. As for those women who never married or their husband were mushriks, they will be allowed to marry whichever worldly man, they so wish, in Jannah. Thus every man in Jannah will have 2 wives from the world.

If we have full conviction in Allah's promise that he will fulfil our every desire in Jannah, then instead of worrying about what they will get in jannah, the women should concentrate their endeavours on pleasing Allah and thus getting to Jannah. As for pleasing us in Jannah, That is Allah responsibility, so he will do His and we should do ours. The greatest pleasure in Jannah for men and women will be the very pleasure of Allah. Everything else will be secondary.

and Allah Ta'ala Knows Best

Its kickin

2010-01-24T23:07:00.001+02:00

The baby keeps kicking me a lot these days. Its nice in generell 2 feel theres something but it just kicks in the wrong time :S
He never does it when iam relaxed in my bed...
Anyway iam thankfull 2 allah that he gave me the chance 2 become a mother inshllah :)

Last night we arrived in the HOuse where 3 of my brothers in law are living. 2 of them r twins n not married while the other 1 is married n has a cute son :)
Now the matter of covering in front of them came back 2 my mind.
I know it haram 2 uncover in front of them and i kept wearing hijab in front of them since the beginning. Also in the few weeks that we lived in the same house with them.
My husband meanwhile tried 2 convience me that its unnessecary 2 do that and that they r family so i shouldnt act like i dont accept them..
Alhamdulilah i could convience him that iam right with this hadith:
‘Uqba b. Amir reported Allah’s Messenger (may peace be upon him) as saying:

Beware of getting, into the houses and meeting women (in seclusion). A person from the Ansir said: Allah’s Messenger, what about husband’s brother, whereupon he said: Husband’s brother is like death.

{Chapter 8, Book 26, Number 5400: Sahih Muslim}

I like my brothers in law and i talk 2 them a lot when we r here. Especially about Islam or their future plans. Ill inshallah try 2 help my one brother in law also 2 study german. But i dont think i would let this all come 2 close. For example i wouldnt let them in my flat when iam alone. Or at least i would ask my husband 2 tell them not 2 come when iam alone. I dont scare of them but i knows its better in islam 2 avoid it.
Alhamdulillah my family in law doesnt have a problem with it even they dont practise it this way. Like 4 them cousins dont need 2 cover in front of each other and they act very free with each other. Maybe iam a bit 2 strict? But after all cousins can marry each other. And me brother on law married his cousin! ANd alhamdulilah their marriage is going great and their kid is awesome :)

Pregnancy in Islam

2010-01-21T01:28:00.000+02:00

Am quite bored at the moment since my husband works on some papers and i got nothing 2 do i was searching in google about pregnancy in Islam. I didnt find much of intresing information. But i like this link http://www.shariahprogram.ca/women-islam/virtues-of-pregnancy.shtml

And this is what it says there:

· When a woman is pregnant with a child, all the angels will make Istighfar (repentance) on her behalf. Allah SWT will, for each day of her pregnancy, write for her 1000 good deeds and erase from her 1000 bad deeds.

· When a pregnant woman starts to feel the pain from contractions, Allah SWT will write in her records as someone who is doing jihad (spiritual or physical struggle) in His path.

· When a woman becomes pregnant by her husband and he is pleased with her, she obtains the reward of a person engaging in fasting for Allah SWT and a person spending the night in ibaadah (worship).

· A woman from the time of pregnancy until childbirth and weaning the baby, is like the Mujahid (someone fighting in the path of Allah, swa) who is stationed on the frontiers of the Islamic land. If she dies during this period, she dies the death of a shahid (martyr).

· Two raka'at salaat performed by a pregnant woman is better than 80 raka'at salaat performed by a non-pregnant woman.

· A woman who is pregnant gets the reward of fasting during the day and of doing ibaadah (worship) during the nights.

· A woman who gives birth gets the reward of 70 years of salaat (prayer) and fasting. For each vein that feels pain, Allah SWT gives her the reward of one accepted hajj (Pilgrimage to Makkah).

· If the woman dies within 40 days of giving birth, she will die as a shahid (matyr).

(Hadith)......."A woman that dies in her virginity or during her pregnancy or at the time of birth or thereafter (in nifaas) will attain the rank of a martyr"

Nabi(salalaallahu alayhi wassallam) is reported to have also said ".......When her labour pains commence, the inhabitants of the earth and the sky are unaware of the stores of comfort that are prepared for her. When she delivers and breast feeds her child, then she will be granted a reword for every gulp of milk, if she had to remain awake during the night for the sake of the child, she will receive the reword of emancipating seventy slaves in the path of Allah Ta'ala. O Salaamat! Do you know who these women are? They are pious, upright, with a delicate nature yet obedient to their husbands and not ungrateful to them"

[Source: Madrasa In'aamiyyah]

I dont know what they mean with nabi. The Prophet muhammad (s.a.w)? or maybe another prophet?
Still it sounds so good whats written there it makes me more happy that iam pregnant right now.
Even though the first thought i had after reading this was : Has my husband been pleased with me when i got pregnant? Well i could ask him but i doubt he gonna remember :D

Hijab or no Hijab?

2010-01-19T00:08:00.000+02:00

This post inst really about me :)
Am waering hijab since about 4 years and am happy with it. I started 2 wear it about 1 year after i konverted and after i already was wearing caps 4 some time.
I just wonder, do u ever tell people if u think their outfit isnt really fitting 2 a hijab? I dont mean like if udont like thier outfit. I simply mean if it islamicly isnt right and the hijab doesnt save it anymore.
For example a girl that wears tight jeans and a tight shirt + a hijab. it doesnt make sense 2 cover when anyone can see the exact shape of ur body, does it?
I know a girl that goes out in a way like that, even not soo extrem, and i wonder if i should talk 2 her. But in the same way im sure she knows as she reads quran a lot and her father is a professor in hadith.
So what do u do in this kinda situations?

Om Ali?

2010-01-18T01:14:00.000+02:00

I actually thought about that if id decide 2 name my Boy Ali am gonna be Om Ali :)
4 any of u who dont know Om Ali, its a sweet dish here in Egypt made of half cooked dough, nuts and raisins. I cant help but thin that every time someone would call me Om Ali i would have 2 think of this and smile.
But in anyway ill not name him Ali as i dont like the Name that much, and still we didnt find a good Name.
My husband suggested Salahuddin..not bad but does anyone use this name nowadays in egypt? I have no idea about it but i dont wanna give my baby a name that will cause other kids 2 make fun of him :S
Muhammad is nice butid prefer something more unique thats not so popular but still sounds good and is accepted in society..a hard task i guess

pics pics pics

2010-01-13T19:49:00.001+02:00

The first one is in City Stars :)
2nd Christmas decoration in germany ( by my mummy)
3rd on a parking place near city stars

very hungry

2010-01-13T16:19:00.000+02:00

Iam hungryyy :S
I just ate a lot last night, though only healthy stuff, and still im so hungry.
In the morning i couldnt fall asleep again bcz i was so hungry but i was 2 lazy 2 get up n cook something.
Now i just took 1,5 hours 2 make 2 different kinds of rice but all i want is CHOCOLATE!
But my lovly husband refused yesterday 2 go out n get it 4 me ( thats ur job, iam pregnant after all :P)
So my last hope is 2 get chocolate 2day, i just cant get enough of that stuff.
And the best about it is i can eat as much as i want since im supposed 2 gainsome weight and i didnt gain anything til now..Sometimes its great 2 be pregnant :)

i had a bad day..

2010-01-11T15:44:00.001+02:00

A really bad one :S
On saturday i actually had 2 get up at 5am 2 eat so that i could go 2 he lab 4 the bloodtest at 11am ( u gotta fast 6 hours 4 that)
Anyway i didnt hear the alarm on my mobile and woke at 8.30am
After eating andomi(some kinda pasta with soup) and some bread i didnt felt good at all. Appearently my stomach doesnt think andomi is good 4 breakfast. The rest of the day i had problems with my stomach :(
We went 2 the lab at 4pm ( after 7 hours fasting)
There i got 2 know that i have 2 make a complete blood test not only the sugar one.
So they had 2 take my blood :S
I thought they would just do this test where they use ur finger..
Im really scared of taking blood, 2 a point that i get really dizzy and feel bad when i have 2 do it ( just bcz of my psychology, i know it doesnt hurt that bad in reality)
I was near 2 decide 2 leave it and go but than i just changed my mind and let the nurse do it.
It wasnt that bad as the times in germany. At least after that i could eat again.
And after some time w went 2 Nasr city/city stars 4 shopping. Even we didnt buy anything bcz the baby things i like are wether 4 girls or boys n not unisex.
But after we left city stars i realized i lost my mobile so we searched it in the car and as we didnt find it my husband called my number.
A male person took the call and told us 2 come 2 harm 2 meet him 2 get it back.
Its not really near 2 city stars but alhamdulilah we got there quite fast.
Anyhow after searching and calling him several times 2 find where exactly he is, we met him and got it back, alhamdulillah.
I thoutght i really will never see my mobil eagain and i just got it 2 weeks ago.
After that since we were in harm my husband demanded that we go 2 his mothers flat :S
he said we will just stay shortly bcz it was already late but of course we stayed there n slept there. And the next day we stayed there 2.
As ususal his mother was very annoying, always coming into the room and even distubring me when i pray ( she just came very close and starred at me waiting me 2 finish).
m glad we left there so i can relax in my home n dont need 2 accept someone coming in my room disturbing me when i sleep and trying 2 make me eat things she knows i will never eat...

Babynames???

2010-01-08T19:37:00.000+02:00

Ok so iam trying 2 find a good name 4 the baby ( though we still dont know if its a boy or a girl)
But it doesnt seem 2 be so important 2 my husband as he believes im gonna dream about the name one night and ill just know it..
Am so not so sure about this, and id prefer 2 have Names set just in case anything happens.
The problem is that id love 2 have 2 names, one arabic and 1 nordic name
For example Fares Killian
But my husband says the egyptian offices wont allow it 2 give the baby 2 names as in this case killian would be seem as the name of the father :(
Ill have 2 figure this out bcz im gonna get the birth certificate from the german embassy so our baby will have the german nationality inshallah.

Here r some names i like and my husband doesnt dislike
girls:
Alina = Beautiful.
Alayna = Princess (Iranian) Upon (Arabic)
Light (From the Greek word Helena)
Aleenam = Silk of heaven.
Alaia = Virtuous
Ana = Prestige, self respect.
Meymona = Good Fortune.
Mina = light
Minal = Gift, achievement.
Munira = Light, sunshine.
Naira (shinning, glittering)
Saira = Happy

boys:
Ilyas- A Prophet's name.
Faraz-Ascent, height.
iyad
Aazim -Male Determined

Which of the names do u like best?

Back in Egypt

2010-01-03T17:39:00.001+02:00

So am back in egypt :)
The journey was better than going there but still not great.
After spending new years night with my mum n uncle i went 2 bed at 1 am just 2 get up again at 5am 2 get ready.
At 6am my uncle came back 2 drive me 2 the airport ( 180km).
My flight from hamburg 2 prag was from 9.15 am until 10.40 am
When we reached parg the pilot gave us the information that we have no permission 2 land there and we have 2 wait 4 further information..not very nice 2 hear this when u r in a plane.
When the plane finally went down we all could see what was the problem.
It was so foggy that u couldnt even see the lights of the tower.
Alhamdulillah the pilot was great and got us down without any problems, but it still was scary.
After the flight i heard that some ppl in the plane even prayed bcz they were so scared:S

After that i had 2 stay at the airport until 9.40pm when my flight took of to cairo.
It just started 2 snow when the plane took off :)
Alhamdulillah iarrived cairo at 2.30am an d needed about 20 min 2 get through the checks
The really opend my bag :S
The guy even asked me 2 lift my 19kg bag up so he could open it, but i clearly told him i cant lift it up!
Anyway after the normal rude behaviour of the airport stuff i finally got to go back home :)

Christmas Holidays in germany

2009-12-27T19:43:00.001+02:00

So am in germany...finally :)
The travel wasnt that good since my first flight 2 Prague got delayed for 3 hours bcz of snow and my flight from Prague 2 Hamburg got delayed from 7am until 9pm :S
But alhamdulillah the airline gave me a hotel room which was really great.
And inthe end i reached hamburg safe

Now am here since some days and i already visited my granddad and the rest of the time i spend with my mum.

Expect 4 that its pretty cold here.
When i reached it was snowing and about 5 grad under 0.
Now the snow melted and its 1 grad which is still cold compared to the 20 we had in cairo.The next days ill just spend shopping the things i cant get in egypt and of course being with my family.
Inshallah my uncle an his wife n son gonna visit us from denmark and ill visit my aunt 2.
I have 4 uncles and 7 aunts but we sadly dont have contact 2 all of them so ill just see the ones that r close 2 us.
I wont see my dad but ill write him a letter again even though he never answers my letters :(

I wish u all a happy new year

paperwork sucks

2009-12-19T20:26:00.000+02:00

Is it only germany, or is every country this hard when it comes 2 paper works?
My husband and me are working on legalising our marriage officialy.
Til now we r only islamicly married.
Well since am german its all not so easy :S
I need a paper that prooves iam able 2 marry
And 4 this paper i need a lot of other papers..*sigh*
Thats what we need: Birthcertificate ( from me and him)
Certifacet that he isnt married
certificate about my last living place in germany
passport copies from me and him

His papers have 2 be certificated, tranlsated into german and certificated again from the german embassy

after all i can get the paper that i need

and than..
we have 2 go german embassy ask them 2 let us get married
( they will interview us!)
Than with thier approve we can finally get married..

what a work just 4 papers

I used to think egypt is islamic, but well the islamic marriage here isnt accepted at all..

Pray 4 me that all goes well so it goes fast and easy 4 us.

MIL

2009-12-16T22:20:00.000+02:00

MIL = Mother in Law
I cant say my mother in law is a monster who is treating me so bad especially when my husbands not looking
Or who is making me do the cleaning 4 her
I gotta say alhamdulillah

But theres something bothering me a lot about her
She thinks making decisions 4 me is her special duty
Ok she has choosen the doctor 4 me bcz i dont know one here
Ok she had 2 join us there bcz she knows where he is ( and she cant expalin the way)

But thats where my accepting ends!
I expect that when iam at the doctor, she doesnt starts talking arabic with him about my condition.
Sorry but this is about my body and my baby, so i expect them 2 talk english ( ok she cant so she shouldnt talk at all..)
Id prefer that she didnt come with us inside the doctors office, but my husband insisted
Now she interrupted all the time the conversation with her questions and she always tryd 2 get the conversation away from me and into arabic.
So am not someone who needs attention all the time and who cant stand not 2 be in centre of attenrtion.
But this was my doctors appointment, and actually its not her buisnes what about me and the baby.
Sure i would tell her everything iwant her 2 know after the appointment.
But her talking arabic about me and my baby isnt just what i want!

The worse thing is my husband doesnt see a problem.
He says she got more experience so she has the right 2 ask the doctor questins 4 me and make decisions..( just like she made the decision we dont need a certain test...sorry but thats NOT ur decision!)
Im not gonna accept that and ill keep fighting 4 my own decisions about me, my body and my baby.
I wish my husband would be a bit more intrested 2 build a family with me where w make decisions 2gether without his mother trying 2 interrupt them.

Now i wanna buy something gold 4 my mum and guess what?
My husband insist on his mother coming with us 2 buy it ( isnt it bad enough that she bought our wedding rings?)
I wanna choose presents my family myself and i know if she joins us she will try 2 change my decisions and use my husband 2 reach her goal..

cant wait 2 not see her and not hear from her for some days when am in germany!

Pregnancy Hormones?

2009-12-11T23:02:00.001+02:00

I think am getting emotional from the pregnancy hormones :S
I nearly cried when my husband told me that he wanna hang a carpet on the wall in the living room ( it looks like a dead tiger, ugly!!!)
I told him he doesnt let me choose anything 2 which he just replyd i did choose the kitchen and the carpet inthe living room..
Oh yeah how generous that i was allowed 2 choose the kitchen and a carpet *sarcasm*
The whole bedroom has been choosen by his family, and i hate it. Im sorry 2 say this but its so damn ugly i cant stand it..
Anything else in the house is choosen by HIM

I thought the house will be mine as i dont go out much and i at least want a place 2 feel home, which i dont have right now.
Just thinking of it makes me cry again.. r these pregnancy hormones?

I want the house 2 be a place where we both feel home and where the decoration is liked by both of us, not he choose some and me choose some and nothing fit 2gether.
Why cant he act a bit more like a husband and a bit less like a single guy?

Right now i just feel lonly and cant wait 2 see my family :S :(

cant stop

2009-12-10T19:15:00.000+02:00

I dont know why am doing this 2 myself :)
Am sick, got a bad cold again..its my own fault as i didnt cover myself well and fast enough after taking a shower ( and i hear this from my husband over n over again *sigh*)
Still i cant stay in bed an dtake rest as i should, well i could but my mind doesnt let me.
I just cooked 4 dinner, made a cake, cleaned up the kitchen and bathroom and washed clothes. Now i feel really exhausted, the way i would never feel if i wasnt ill and doing this stuff.
But i simply feel guilty if my husband comes home into a dirty house where no food is ready at all.

I have 2 admit i didnt made the cake just 4 my husband :)
I really want some chocolate and i hope it will make me hungry as these days i dont wanna eat at all. Im just not hungry and food make me feel like running away. Even things i love, i just cant seem 2 enjoy eating :(
I just pray it doesnt harm my baby that i dont eat so much these days.
Ill find out in some days inshallah when ill see a doctor. Since i decided 2 change the doctor my family in law is deciding a new doctor ( i simply dont know any doctors here). But the doctor they choose is kinda busy and he or she could only give me a date on saturday, so i hope it gonna work out and ill see the baby on the sonar again :)
Now when am lucky they might find out if its a girl or a boy *crossing fingers*
I still wish 4 a girl but i stopped making dua 4 that.As my husband wants a boy and everyone else wants a girl ill try 2 be not caring about th egender and i only make dua that the baby is strong, healthy and 2 be a good muslim..inshallah

The other thing i make dua 4 every single day is that my mum converts 2 islam.
Any of u who have non muslim parents? and did u try 2 show them islam?

why u wake me up at 3am?

2009-12-09T03:18:00.000+02:00

Really why u waking up ur pregnant tired ( ok i know tired 4 no reason) at 3am in the night by playing loud music on the laptop while laying next 2 her?
Cant u be a little more gentle turning the music off or at least use headphones?

Actually i dont know why am so tired, i didnt do anyhing 2day. Still i felt lik ei didnt sleep 4 ages and i went 2 sleep at 12 which i didnt do since a long time.
I think its good though as normally we go 2 sleep way 2 late and wake up late from this 2.
Now am awake so ill use this 2 do some prayers and go back 2 sleep inshallah,
I have doubts that my husband gonna join me as he seems 2 be unable 2 sleep before fajr these days :S

I just realized its only 1.30 hours until fajr :S
Mayb e i should stay awake til fajr as i already slept 3 hours and if isleep 1 hour and wake up again it just sucks, doesnt it?
Dont know what 2 do :S

am i living at the countryside?

2009-12-08T14:35:00.001+02:00

I really wondered this 2day morning.
At 11am when i wake up from the dhur adhan, i just couldnt sleep again later bcz there is somewhere a goat near my house.
At Eid there were goats everywhere, but why now?
Its so annoying when u cant sleep bcz the goat makes so much noise.
I thought im living in a city not a village but maybe i was wrong.
I live in Obour city its a new part, i think still belonging 2 cairo somehow.
But 2 be true obour sucks.
There is no pizza shop here ( well 1 which made me sick)
No nice cafes
No intresting parks
No good mall or shops ( except carrefoure maybe)

Now the goat is silent but the make so much noise working on the street..
I desperatly want 2 sleep as i slept at 6am and after 11 i couldnt sleep very well anymore..
Will i ever find a place where i can live my life in peace, in silence and where i feel really home?

the invitation

2009-12-05T15:58:00.000+02:00

Yesterday we have been invited 2 the aunt of my husband and her family.
Shes really a great person, so kind and lovable and so is her family.
The dinner was nice even though my husband told them i like meat which was simply a lie nad he knows it. That kinda made me in some trouble as they expected me 2 eat the fish and meat.
Anyway stil it was a nice evening and aunt zezo even gave us some presents :)
After this we went shopping in downtown which was as usual chaotic but alhamdulillah i found some shoes i can wear in germany and a new bag (much needed)

It was such a great day and am kinda sad that now its over and we r back in reality :S
The parents of my husband r propably going 2 divorce :S
My mother in law ( monster in law!) is so jealous that he married again, a young woman.
So she keeps destroying everything more and more and she wants 2 get divorce ( he doesnt)
ANyway inshallah everything will turn out good even it doesnt look good like this.

4 me i concentrate on going germany and buying some presents 4 my family and of course on the baby which is 11 weeks now :)

Am going 2 germany :)

2009-11-25T20:53:00.001+02:00

I just booked he flight which will be on the 21st of december and ill be back on the 1st january :)
Am so happy i cant tell
The flight will be with czech airline, i never used this one be4 but inshallah it be good
Now i gotta start buying some little presents 4 my family and get ready 2 visit my home ( still consider it home :S)

soo bored

2009-11-23T19:06:00.000+02:00

Am so bored
Husband is at work n brother in law sleeps in his room ( at least i guess he sleeps)
I finished cleaning n cooking n listend some islamic lessons
N now?
Its dark n cold outside n still got no tv or books *sigh*
Life can be really boring like this

human behaviour

2009-11-23T16:41:00.000+02:00

i cant help but feel sorry 4 the dogs on the following pics
i didnt even recognize the dog on the 1st one i thought its a toy :S